Discussion Anyone else want to kill themselves because they're a bad person?

[ilvgore]

Do you want to ctb because you think you're a bad person?
Did you do some stuff that is unforgivable and now you can't cope with what you have done?

I want to kill myself because i have done some pretty bad things, especially as a child.
I also have those disgusting thoughts about hurting other people..
I know i would be never capable of that but it's still haunting to me.. why do I have these thoughts?
I think death would be to merciful, but on the other hand the world would be better off if i didn't exist, lol.

I wish i could apologise to everyone i have harmed, send them letters before suicide, buy some chocolate♡~

I was wronged in the first place because i was born, yes my family harmed me but i can't blame everything on them..

Please help me:(

 

[Withered]

I've been an asshole (to say the least) to people in the past---people to whom above all else I should have given my love. However, I don't think that me doing those bad things constitutes me being a bad person, especially since I am remorseful and haven't done those things since.

I see something similar for you: you have done some unfortunate things in your youth for which you are remorseful, although I have no ability to tell if you have done something like them since. But, honestly, who doesn't do stupid stuff as a kid? What you say makes me feel like you are a pretty good person.

Additionally, you should revisit your stance on your family harming you by your mother giving birth to you. That's pretty fallacious.

 

[khinterest]

Oh yeah I have had a few suicide attempts due to me just being who I am. The world does not understand or care to understand deeper psychologically issues. The good thing with you is you seem to not be able to go through with anything so it's just yourself you got to worry about. You also have care enough to not force your traumas on others. Better then constantly and actively wanting others to die horrid deaths, but we all die in the end so maybe it's deserved. The thoughts are so isolated and makes people with these thoughts want to blow their fucking heads off and die and get away from everyone. I think we are better off away from this fucking place that hates us. Lots of good methods to look through on this site!

 

[wham311]

Aming other reasons absolutely, this probably being the main one. The worst is that people who want to kts for being bad people don't get sympathy, just compounds everything

 

[theboy]

This is called "impulse phobia"

 

[tshirt]

yes. cant forgive myself for something, on top of spiraling in all aspects of my life afterwards and wont recover from it. i wanna end things very soon

 

[SNastablesalt]

Do you want to ctb because you think you're a bad person?
Did you do some stuff that is unforgivable and now you can't cope with what you have done?

I want to kill myself because i have done some pretty bad things, especially as a child.
I also have those disgusting thoughts about hurting other people..
I know i would be never capable of that but it's still haunting to me.. why do I have these thoughts?
I think death would be to merciful, but on the other hand the world would be better off if i didn't exist, lol.

I wish i could apologise to everyone i have harmed, send them letters before suicide, buy some chocolate♡~

I was wronged in the first place because i was born, yes my family harmed me but i can't blame everything on them..

Please help me:(

I have hybristophillia/I am a hybristophile so yes absolutely

 

[bankai]

You're showing remorse. That's a sign that you're willing to change. Obviously you can't do anything about the stuff in the past. But you can make up for it going forward.

 

[FoxSauce]

Well yes. I know I'm a shitty person, others will know too. I'm not worthy of breathing thr same air as anyone does. I cant forgive myself for things I've done.

It strings along with me...I want the pain to stop. I dont wanna be a burden, I don't wanna be a failure and don't want to be a parasite in this world.

But if I do end it. Where would I go? Is it selfish? Will people be happy when im gone?

I still dont know.

 

[wham311]

It is impossible to forgive yourself.

Karma kinda really is a thing. You suffer for everything you do wrong and every bad choice you make. All comes back..

Do the right thing

 

[amerie]

Me lol

I'm literally human gluttony, I'm lazy and needy hence why I don't want to make friends anymore because I suck ass at keeping them. I'm rude and weak and I frankly have no idea how I've been surviving.

With the way I'm going I doubt most are going to care if I died right now, I think they'd naturally feel a little sad because we're human and seeing someone kts is uncanny but they'd get over it and move on in a few days or probably like 3 months.