Anyone else want to die because they're retarded

[AMutatedFlower]

I've tried ECT 18 times. I've tried to commit suicide a few times so I'm not working at full capacity. People use to not call me retarded but they do now. It's really sad how much I've lossed.

I want to die but I also don't want to suffer. More than likely I just continue to live. If anyone wants to dm SN sources it'd be appreciated. I need to die. It's the ethical right thing to do at this point. In forward thinking countries, id be offered suicide as an option. I'm also labeled incompetent and I live in the u.s. my abuser is my guardian so things are really bleak

 

[SparkleWater]

Been retarded since day fucking one and never got the right support. Id rather die than live the rest of my life crawling and barely surviving

 

[AMutatedFlower]

Been retarded since day fucking one and never got the right support. Id rather die than live the rest of my life crawling and barely surviving

Aren't you a student? Getting into college takes some good genetics. Id focus on that.

 

[cheaptrick]

Its not the main cause but it certainly contributed to my desire to die. If I could live a happy carefree retard I would, sadly the only option for me seems to be a miserable chronically in pain retard, which id rather not be.

 

[ona]

i think being retarded for me actually makes my life better, sorta like a "ignorance is bliss" type thing. im not like full brown retarded, but enough to where im slow in the head. i guess because its not as bad as maybe yours then i dont mind it as much since it makes me think less than others.

 

[insectontrial]

I'm autistic. I'm not intellectually disabled, but my autism has ruined my life for me and is the main reason I wish to CTB. It's not a condition that gets better over time. I thought I'd be better in adulthood, but I'm actually more visibly autistic now due to burnout. I'll never know what a normal life could've looked like, and the future just looks bleak.

 

[SparkleWater]

Aren't you a student? Getting into college takes some good genetics. Id focus on that.

its community so its not like it takes much to get in.
plus it should have taken me 2 years to graduate. maybe 4. Started at 18 i am turning 26 soon
and that has nothing to do with the way I get overwelmed so easily at things. Youd understand how retarded I am when you see me screaming and bashing my head in during a meltdown.

 

[AMutatedFlower]

its community so its not like it takes much to get in.
plus it should have taken me 2 years to graduate. maybe 4. Started at 18 i am turning 26 soon
and that has nothing to do with the way I get overwelmed so easily at things. Youd understand how retarded I am when you see me screaming and bashing my head in during a meltdown.

I went to community college too... I eventually dropped out. I wish you the best of luck

 

[Aflame5926]

I've tried ECT 18 times. I've tried to commit suicide a few times so I'm not working at full capacity. People use to not call me retarded but they do now. It's really sad how much I've lossed.

I want to die but I also don't want to suffer. More than likely I just continue to live. If anyone wants to dm SN sources it'd be appreciated. I need to die. It's the ethical right thing to do at this point. In forward thinking countries, id be offered suicide as an option. I'm also labeled incompetent and I live in the u.s. my abuser is my guardian so things are really bleak

we can't. even through i wish for it tho. but also i can't confirm the ECT story tho. not that you have to prove it. there is hints if you search function. i toke me 6-8 hours to find it. and you should not overthink it. please try to find it yourself. you can dm people to check if you have the correct source or not

 

[thelostautistic]

I'm autistic. I'm not intellectually disabled, but my autism has ruined my life for me and is the main reason I wish to CTB. It's not a condition that gets better over time. I thought I'd be better in adulthood, but I'm actually more visibly autistic now due to burnout. I'll never know what a normal life could've looked like, and the future just looks bleak.

I feel the exact same way. My autism has ruined everything too and I'm sick of it

 

[autisticmessiah]

I got the tism as well so I'm socially retarded but otherwise average intellectually, just that is enough for it to be a deal breaker with how much human existence revolves around socializing.

 

[telekon]

i got rid of my tism with magical spells

 

[porcelain.ribbon]

Been retarded since day fucking one and never got the right support. Id rather die than live the rest of my life crawling and barely surviving

its the same for me here, i'm diagnosed with a learning disability, autism, adhd and a bunch of other labels that only drag me down and i have received no support in my life for them, i'm only left to fend for myself as a retard with no support. I completely understand ur feelings of death over life as a retard.

 

[singingcrow]

yep. i'm pretty sure i have adhd so makes life hard

 

[DeathByBananabread]

Uhm, not what I would personally call myself, but I've been called that many times from a very young age. It was my Mother's favourite thing to call me & I was aware of it as a word before learning most curse words or just other words in-general. It's been pretty awful.

I think even if the world wasn't what it is right now, & things magically got way better tomorrow, I'd still struggle quite a lot from the point I am right now- inexperienced, socially inept, & most of my brainpower dominated by flashbacks. If I were someone's pet & they were a good pet owner they'd want to humanely put me down.