Anyone else sad they’ll never talk to friends or family ever again?

[Weebster]

When I'm dead, I won't care, but I will leading up to it.

 

[iforgotmyacc]

Yes!

The only reason I am still alive is because of my mom, siblings and two cats, I don't even speak that much to them anymore (to my family that is, my cats I speak to 24/7).

I can't hurt my family like that. I'd rather suffer til the end of time than hurt them. But I also really want to die super badly.

I wish I'd become too insane to be able to reason, and just act out of impulse, but I keep having a clear mind about it all...

 

[brnggundottxt]

mskes me a bit happy. It's like ghosting someone except they can't follow you around.

 

[FuneralCry]

Not really, the way I see it, we will all die eventually, we will lose everything someday and there is nothing we can do about it. All that I want is to leave this life behind, there is nothing that I will miss about living, my life is only pain and suffering. When I am dead nothing can hurt me, as my death will be the end of me.

 

[Weebster]

Not really, the way I see it, we will all die eventually, we will lose everything someday and there is nothing we can do about it. All that I want is to leave this life behind, there is nothing that I will miss about living, my life is only pain and suffering. When I am dead nothing can hurt me, as my death will be the end of me.

Interesting. It's hard to view it like that because in the midst of living, people hang around for decades. Your view, though accurate, feels like everyone I know is dying left and right.

 

[ameliacecelia]

I've been suffering progressive neurological symptoms and now that I have SN on the way, I thought I would be more relieved. I have to visit my dad's for a few days before. I want to enjoy my time with him, but I'm afraid I'll be crying a lot of the time. For his sake, I don't want to do it before spending more time with him.

 

[CommitSudoku]

Very much so, but some people I've lost already or am in the process of losing. I don't want to cause anyone I care about pain. But quite honestly it brings me peace when I think how some people could assume I'm dead already. I will miss people and talking to them, but I won't miss my thoughts that hurt me and the social anxiety I've gotten. I'll never get to talk to anyone or know anyone as much as I'd desire either, so in some ways leaving saves me from this heartache that comes from what isn't possible.

 

[Red Scare]

The only person I really want to be with and talk to is already dead, I already will never get that opportunity again... and I can't stand the thought of living the rest of my life without him so....

 

[Weebster]

Very much so, but some people I've lost already or am in the process of losing. I don't want to cause anyone I care about pain. But quite honestly it brings me peace when I think how some people could assume I'm dead already. I will miss people and talking to them, but I won't miss my thoughts that hurt me and the social anxiety I've gotten. I'll never get to talk to anyone or know anyone as much as I'd desire either, so in some ways leaving saves me from this heartache that comes from what isn't possible.

"I'll never get to talk to anyone or know anyone as much as I'd desire either, so in some ways leaving saves me from this heartache that comes from what isn't possible."

That's interesting. That means in a sense I'm dead already and holding onto hopes (relationships, etc) that most likely won't be realized and I'm just torturing myself. Maybe I need to let go (figuratively and literally).

 

[CommitSudoku]

"I'll never get to talk to anyone or know anyone as much as I'd desire either, so in some ways leaving saves me from this heartache that comes from what isn't possible."

That's interesting. That means in a sense I'm dead already and holding onto hopes (relationships, etc) that most likely won't be realized and I'm just torturing myself. Maybe I need to let go (figuratively and literally).

Depends what you want out of relationships. I wished I could get into people's heads and actually see things from how they view, experience their thoughts as they think them. Such is not possible of course and I doubt many people would want that. I just feel it's a shame we'll never know anyone that well. Even being with someone for years, you can only know so many things about them and never what's internal.

If you have desires like I used to then it is torture eventually since it becomes that nothing will ever be enough. Relationships can never be fulfilling if your desires always remain impossible to reach for them.

 

[downsolong]

no. i am glad to think i'll be relieved of it. i have always disliked talking.

 

[WonderingSoul]

I hate my family but I don't know about friends.

 

[deletednumber]

What family?what friends?

 

[demuic]

That will happen eventually no matter what. Either you die first or they die first in a "natural" death or otherwise. There is no escaping that fact, someone will get hurt either way.

 

[slushy]

Yeah, I am. But I'm more sad for them, that they'll never see me again. At least I'll be dead, so I won't feel it. But they'll have to deal with my decision the rest of their lives. I'm so selfish for doing this.

 

[AnestheticVoid]

Honestly no.

I think that's due to my personality disorder tho.

 

[Weebster]

Yeah, I am. But I'm more sad for them, that they'll never see me again. At least I'll be dead, so I won't feel it. But they'll have to deal with my decision the rest of their lives. I'm so selfish for doing this.

I've never looked at things that way meaning I don't think I'm a prize to be missed. Anyway everyone is selfish. The expectation that we should go through life being selfless all the time is ridiculous. I believe that expectation is put on seemingly good people as a way to manipulate them like suckers.

 

[Rational man]

I wont miss family. They never took time to know me, only time to abuse me. One or two close people i will miss but then all relationships end in the end. We eventually let go of this world and all that we knew. Im going to miss the folks on this site. You've been understanding and have shown a deep sense of knowing. ❤

 

[Weebster]

I wont miss family. They never took time to know me, only time to abuse me. One or two close people i will miss but then all relationships end in the end. We eventually let go of this world and all that we knew. Im going to miss the folks on this site. You've been understanding and have shown a deep sense of knowing. ❤

And relationships can end abruptly too for various reasons. I guess I'm holding onto something that can't be held onto.

 

[Mukey]

im gonna miss the fuck outta my chihuahua he is so different from other dogs its like hes almost human and my parents too

 

[Rational man]

And relationships can end abruptly too for various reasons. I guess I'm holding onto something that can't be held onto.

well when i say all relationships end, it might be that end of life ends it. Ultimately, we have to say goodbye in the end!

 

[Weebster]

well when i say all relationships end, it might be that end of life ends it. Ultimately, we have to say goodbye in the end!

But when I always thought of the end, it was decades from now. Ultimately, it doesn't matter if I die today or 50 yrs from now.

 

[LoneMisery]

Im actively trying to not talk to people now. I wish i could move out of state and change my number never to be found again. Its like being dead but not dead

 

[ikadasui]

Not really... it sucks but I'm really realizing my friends aren't really friends so to speak. I care for them a great deal, but the way they treat me in return save for a few makes me miserable. Not family, few friends and work just hammers in how worthless I am 5 days a week. I can't do any of it anymore and only death is a relief now

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

I can't be sad for what I never had.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Meh. It's not like anything they could say would really be able to change my mind anyway.

 

[xo777]

Kind of but i'm mostly upset that I won't see my cat anymore i'm really going to miss him

 

[Of The Universe]

When I'm dead, I won't care, but I will leading up to it.

If I had (the right) family & friends,I wouldn't want to ctb. But alas,I is alone in this world,so why should I stay?

Kind of but i'm mostly upset that I won't see my cat anymore i'm really going to miss him

What happened to the older woman who had Sweepea the cat? She never came back.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

No. I've cut contact except for one . I let this one message me just to see what kind of info will filter through but there's really nothing important I need to hear. another trusted family member already has my note . They responded to it but I just ignored the email I don't want to hear what They have to say I just wanted them to know so they can get ready to settle the estate

 

[roaming_soul]

I'm sad for what I'll leave behind. But I've come to terms with it. I've received a lot of love and given a lot of love - this gives me peace in my decision.