Anyone else kind of hope the meds don't work?

[unimaginativelamp]

My therapist and psychiatrist keep wanting to try different meds. I finally caved, and agreed to go on an anti-psychotic after trying a bunch of different antidepressants to little-to-no avail.

I just started the new med the other day, and part of me is hoping it doesn't work. I feel like then I can more easily say, "Well, I tried. This definitely cannot get better. Time to call it a day and down some SN."

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I stopped Antidepressants partially hoping it would make me feel worse and put me into a shroud of utter darkness. But strangely I feel better having stopped antidepressants. I miss the fog of deep depression.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

No. Thankfully my medication it is helping me a lot and I'm much calmer.

 

[Treeline589]

As I can relate to this. Under pressure from psych and therapist I have just started meds again. I am hoping they do not work.

 

[Niko66]

No, I desperately want each med I try to help at all and end up with the full weight of disappointment every time.

 

[natali4]

I have tried maybe 6 different meds and none worked for me. So I can safely say I tried.

 

[rationaltake]

I stopped Antidepressants partially hoping it would make me feel worse and put me into a shroud of utter darkness. But strangely I feel better having stopped antidepressants. I miss the fog of deep depression.

Yes. I know someone who stopped antidepressants and now feels better.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Yes. I know someone who stopped antidepressants and now feels better.

I don't really want to feel better. I want to be enveloped in a fog of darkness…

 

[rationaltake]

I don't really want to feel better. I want to be enveloped in a fog of darkness…

I can understand that in a way. I'm a bit more able to do things atm but I still can't see the point. I still plan to ctb. I wish I had N.

 

[thedaywillcome]

Fuck off with your pills.