Anyone else have BPD?

[northevelyn]

Borderline Personality Disorder is one of my main diagnosis, and it is one of the main reasons I want to ctb. I'm wondering if anyone else here has BPD and what your experience has been that led you here.

 

[Forveleth]

If you have the search unlocked, you can search for BPD. There are a couple threads that I have seen with this title, so there are definitely other people here.

 

[FoxSauce]

Yes i do have bpd

 

[ExistHarm]

yep. it sucks so bad my friend who also had it just killed herself. its a 10% or something crazy of people with BPD who CTB. yes, 10% its crazy.

 

[DeathWish3301]

Sure do. Took me forever to get diagnosed. I've been told it's under diagnosed in men. I'm 30 and had 8 out of 9 criteria since at least my mid twenties.

 

[northevelyn]

Sure do. Took me forever to get diagnosed. I've been told it's under diagnosed in men. I'm 30 and had 8 out of 9 criteria since at least my mid twenties.

Oof. That sounds rough

 

[DeathWish3301]

Oof. That sounds rough

Yeah, it sucks. Sorry you have to deal with it, also.

 

[northevelyn]

Yeah, it sucks. Sorry you have to deal with it, also.

I'm at 9/9

 

[s00ngone]

I'm fairly certain I don't fit the criteria (which I know pretty intimately), but the only friend I had in high school did. I was their favorite person. It was a beautiful, turbulent, devastating relationship that ended in disaster. I interrupted their suicide attempt after school my junior year. I wonder what they'd think now, knowing I'm here.

I certainly fit the criteria for CPTSD, though. One of my earliest self-diagnoses. Got that pretty reliably confirmed by my therapist of several years before we stopped meeting.

 

[DeathWish3301]

I'm at 9/9

Mine is co-morbid with bipolar I, as well. I feel the struggle.

One mental health professional told me she didn't want to give me the diagnosis due to the stigma associated with it.

The doctor who did diagnose me said personality disorders are subjective, which is what could have led to the delay.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I was diagnosed with that at one time. Later became DID. PTSD came years after that.

 

[DeathWish3301]

I was diagnosed with that at one time. Later became DID. PTSD came years after that.

I'm curious, as I've known a few people with DID. How did they confuse that with BPD?

 

[northevelyn]

I was diagnosed with that at one time. Later became DID. PTSD came years after that.

Would it be okay if I DMed you? I'm really interested in DID and want to hear more about those with that experience.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Would it be okay if I DMed you? I'm really interested in DID and want to hear more about those with that experience.

Sure. Cant say how quick I will respond though.

I'm curious, as I've known a few people with DID. How did they confuse that with BPD?

I couldn't answer that. Maybe, because my emotions were all over the place, and the switching can look like BPD? I understand a little, but not how they make their decisions, but also remember many don't even believe in Did. They look for the Amnesia. without that they can become lost.

 

[IndictEvolution]

Yep, my favorite person killed herself 2 weeks ago and I'm planning to go soon. We had an insane amount of principles in common, even though I'm more of a thinking type and she was more of a feeling type. I feel completely isolated now even if I'm around other people, as 99.9% of people's ethics are abhorrent to me. She was the first person I ever felt like I could relate to strongly, didn't even know it was a thing. Now that I've lost that, I know I'm done here.

 

[northevelyn]

Yep, my favorite person killed herself 2 weeks ago and I'm planning to go soon. We had an insane amount of principles in common, even though I'm more of a thinking type and she was more of a feeling type. I feel completely isolated now even if I'm around other people, as 99.9% of people's ethics are abhorrent to me. She was the first person I ever felt like I could relate to strongly, didn't even know it was a thing. Now that I've lost that, I know I'm done here.

I'm sorry to hear that. I can't imagine the pain you're going through. I hope you're able to find connection in this life. You deserve love.

 

[matchalavendercake]

i never got diagnosed with anything due to never going to a psychiatrist, but i did somehow got diagnosed with autism back in 2018 after i got taken to this place for a testing. however, for the past few years i've gotten so convinced i might have bpd cause i've been having many symptoms.. along with a few other personality disorders and also plenty of mental disorders

 

[floop]

i have bpd. i was told i had "borderline symptoms" when i was a teenager and i was officially diagnosed once i turned 18 (i'm 23 now), you have to be 18+ to be diagnosed with a personality disorder where i am from. it's literally so hard, i have more "quiet bpd" i don't struggle with anger/outbursts as much, it's more the chronic feelings of emptiness/no sense of self and disassociation for me that is the worst. i never really felt like i've "known" who i am and that is really hard for sure. i hate how big my emotions are and the constant all or nothing/black and white thinking when it comes to everything. what led me here is a dozen of attempts to ctb starting at 12, since then i've been clinically dead twice and/or in a mini coma/on life support 5 times now, i just am very tired and whenever i've been found, it's always been by chance/accident and that is a whole other level of frustration lol but yeah, i feel like i've stopped waiting for things to get better and now i'm just waiting for things to be over. i'm so sorry you struggle with this too OP, all of my well wishes are with you <3 (((hugs)))

 

[IndictEvolution]

I personally don't accept it as a "disorder", more just like my personality does not fit into society. I see BPD as just people who are hyperaware. So many people I've talked to with BPD say shit like they were just much more aware as kids etc. and it's what causes all the issues/trauma. We just don't mesh well with society. I think modern society has just made our personalities miserable. Really shortening my opinion here a lot for brevity, but yeah I really don't care for the clinical view of BPD.

 

[Griever]

Next to anorexia, borderline personality disorder is one of the worst mental illnesses I know