Anyone else feeling obcessive with dying

[Foreversad]

Since i understood i wanna die cause my life turned very bad im 24/7 CONSTANTLY thinking of it .today i wondered why the hell didnt i consider it earlier ? If i could i would go in a few minutes

 

[grungeCat]

You're not alone with this obsession. I'm thinking compulsively about dying all the time too. I guess I finally made peace with my ctb. Now I am waiting for favorable circumstances.

 

[Foreversad]

You're not alone with this obsession. I'm thinking compulsively about dying all the time too. I guess I finally made peace with my ctb. Now I am waiting for favorable circumstances.

If only we all could go by now .i hear cars and sun over the window and affects me so badly.they live and i want to die could they just shut up .all of them .nasty society

 

[grungeCat]

If only we all could go by now .i hear cars and sun over the window and affects me so badly.they live and i want to die could they just shut up .all of them .nasty society

Technically speaking I could go now but I want to gather relevant meds that will make the whole process less difficult. I want to do SN as fast as possible but I don't know if I can manage to follow regimen without food and alcohol. I need to have access to opioids which make the fasting less unpleasant and my behaviour less suspicious to my father.

 

[idonntseethepoint]

You aren't alone. Recently it's all I can think about. Even when I'm reading or watching tv I always gravitate back towards the subject. Obsessively research methods for hours. I guess I've just accepted this is the way it's going to go

 

[FuneralCry]

I think of dying all the time. I see non existence as an ideal state to me, as I personally believe there is nothing after death. I see suicide as taking control over a life we did not ask for and is the one way to be free of this burden of existence. It is always on my mind.

 

[wonderworld]

same, i read a lot of books on dying, death and how to process it which idk why I do because when I die it will be other people having to process it

 

[Moose.000]

It's my only peaceful thought.

 

[hʚll]

it's the only thing i think about.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Occupies my every waking moment. Dismal.

 

[Charaltontin]

There isn't a minute I'm not thinking about it.