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Rotting_X

Rotting_X

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Dec 4, 2025
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I was planning to ctb in the span of the next two months but the thought of leaving my childhood dog just fills me with so much sorrow. Imagining her suddenly one day never seeing me again out of nowhere just makes me feel so horrible..
I don't care about leaving family, nor do I care what they'll think of me after I ctb, but I just feel too guilty to leave my dog whose always been there for me and cheered me up when things got bad. I really love her and I don't want her to go through any pain... Is anyone else dealing with this, if so are you still planning on ctb? Also maybe someone has some advice on not feeling this way?

(English isn't my first language, sorry if something doesn't make sense ;;)
 
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StarryEyed

StarryEyed

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Mar 14, 2024
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I'm struggling with this right now too as I'm planning. I don't know what to do. I'm thinking of putting her up for adoption, finding her a really good home of course. But the thing is I don't think anyone could care for her as well because I know absolutely every hair on her body and whisker on her face, and attend to her every need. Have you thought of any alternatives to just leaving her?
 
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blueebellsss

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Jun 29, 2026
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Same. I know my family would take good care of my cat, but she's most attached to me, I think she'd be heartbroken. She's turning 12 though, so maybe I could hold out until she passes.
 
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Rotting_X

Rotting_X

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Dec 4, 2025
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I'm struggling with this right now too as I'm planning. I don't know what to do. I'm thinking of putting her up for adoption, finding her a really good home of course. But the thing is I don't think anyone could care for her as well because I know absolutely every hair on her body and whisker on her face, and attend to her every need. Have you thought of any alternatives to just leaving her?
I'll be leaving her with my parents but unfortunately, I do feel like she'll be mistreated (they don't care too much about her) My dog is quite old now and has many health issues too, so it really breaks my heart.. I wonder how much time she has left. If it turned out she'd die this year, I would definitely wait. I really wish she could just come with me..
Same. I know my family would take good care of my cat, but she's most attached to me, I think she'd be heartbroken. She's turning 12 though, so maybe I could hold out until she passes.
I was also thinking about waiting, but I really do only have 2-3 months. If her health got really bad, I might be able to go a little longer, so as selfish as it may sound, I do hope she'd pass soon so we could then maybe still be together after death.. My dog is 11 years old and has a failing liver so there could be a chance
 
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buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
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I was planning to ctb in the span of the next two months but the thought of leaving my childhood dog just fills me with so much sorrow. Imagining her suddenly one day never seeing me again out of nowhere just makes me feel so horrible..
I don't care about leaving family, nor do I care what they'll think of me after I ctb, but I just feel too guilty to leave my dog whose always been there for me and cheered me up when things got bad. I really love her and I don't want her to go through any pain... Is anyone else dealing with this, if so are you still planning on ctb? Also maybe someone has some advice on not feeling this way?

(English isn't my first language, sorry if something doesn't make sense ;;)
Yes omg. One of the few silver linings is that I live with my parents and the cats are family cats, not just mine, but I still feel guilty. They'll be so confused about me being gone again. My childhood cat passed last year, so at least she doesn't need to suffer from my loss (I was her favorite, I don't even want to think about how she would feel about me dying)
 
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Mar 14, 2024
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I don't have family like you guys do that will take her in, that I know of. But I'm going to start asking around with family and friends if anyone can adopt her. They know I'm crazy for her, so they might be suspicious. So I'll tell them my allergy to her is getting worse, which is true, although not severe enough that I need to give her up for adoption. It'll break my heart, but not as much as it would to have her left vulnerable as homeless.
 
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Elizabeth2366

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Jun 26, 2026
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I love my two dogs with my whole heart. Honestly they are the reason I have stuck around this long. I don't have anyone who will take care of them after I'm gone. They would have a hard time being adopted because they are 9 and 10 years old. I was thinking about using a method (Carbon Monoxide) that would allow me to take them with me.
 
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an-unusual-erratum

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Dec 1, 2023
7
I feel the same.
I have this bird - Eddie - who only gets along with me. He somewhat tolerates my mom, but doesn't get along well with my dad and sister. He is extremely attached to me to the point he screams when I'm out of his sight for more than two minutes, sometimes even flies around frantically to look for me. I've also been told that Eddie always flies to my room and waits for me there whenever I had to go outside for a few hours.
He is only two years and a few months old - I've had since he was around 7 months old - and from what I know they can live up to sixteen to twenty-five years.
While my family would be great caretakers for him, the thought of him constantly looking around and calling out my name makes me feel intense guilt.
 
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