anyone also feeling like outside circumstances only point you towards ctb?

[_Minsk]

im currently feeling like everything around me just leaves me into one direction, i had a small glimpse of hope but it seems to die slowly. every event within this month has pushed me further and further..

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Yes! Every door in life keeps slamming shut in my face... except one. Who am I to try to change fate if that's where life is leading?

 

[Jellyfish42]

Ctb is like duct tape at this point

 

[Lost in a Dream]

The way that I would describe it is this: I feel like I am stranded on an island and suicide is coming towards me like a Category 5 hurricane. I can see it coming and it feels like everything I have done to try to evacuate has failed me. From a distance, it's both beautiful and terrifying at the same time. The closer it gets, the more futile it seems to try to get out of the way. Now I just want the storm surge to drag me out to sea so I can get it over with.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I feel a stronger desire to kill myself as time goes on. I used to be able to avoid it and change things in my life to distract myself, but now I feel like I have no choice. Things are only going to get worse, looking at my circumstances and at the world around me. I really don't want to stick around to hit rock bottom

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Everything has been pointing to ctb recently. Amazing how the more you think about it, the more the pieces fall in place.

 

[Deathbydemo]

Unfortunately yes. I can not go through one more day of being ignored by the person I love. I need to be gone this weekend. I can relate to your post very much.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Unfortunately yes. I can not go through one more day of being ignored by the person I love. I need to be gone this weekend. I can relate to your post very much. ❤

I'm so sorry things have been so hard and have created such a sense of urgency. Whatever you decide to do, I hope it brings you peace.

 

[Deathbydemo]

I'm so sorry things have been so hard and have created such a sense of urgency. Whatever you decide to do, I hope it brings you peace.

Thank you very much.

 

[Chupacabra 44]

For me, it's not external as much as internal. My issues are more about physical and mental health. True, the external stuff is bleak for me, but I see those factors as somewhat a drop in the bucket given my personal situation.

 

[AprilsBlessings]

Yes i've been thinking about this lately

 

[grungeCat]

Yes, I have similar feeling. Death is getting more and more common around me. I watch the only people who love me getting hurt and die. There wasn't such a huge pain build-up in such a short period of time in my whole life.