anyone active in this forum that doesnt have a plan or dont consider themselves suicidal? just curious:0

[Lungz]

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[its-about-time]

Just the D.E.A., the national suicide prevention task force, and a couple curious mental health professionals

I don't consider myself suicidal. I'm not depressed. I just intend to spontaneously kill myself when the moment presents itself.

 

[VerbalWinter]

I would say I don't have a plan for sure, idk if I would consider myself suicidal at the moment, but I can't say I don't have thoughts of wanting to end my life.

 

[Lungz]

Just the D.E.A., the national suicide prevention task force, and a couple curious mental health professionals

I don't consider myself suicidal. I'm not depressed. I just intend to spontaneously kill myself when the moment presents itself.

lol very true my friend.
ive found myself at that point before. i say ive been suicidal for years, but there have been points ive been happy n content,but still known my fate would 100% b in my own hands one day

 

[its-about-time]

lol very true my friend.
ive found myself at that point before. i say ive been suicidal for years, but there have been points ive been happy n content,but still known my fate would 100% b in my own hands one day

Precisely how I feel! My SN should be here in the next week or so. I've been having pretty darn good days consistently since I ordered it. Been suicidal for over a decade and even in such good moods it's no question that I'll kill myself at some point—the timeline is the only thing that really changes. I find that after an especially good day, I feel relaxed and feel rather ready to die. Go out on a good note :)

 

[CommitSudoku]

I stopped assigning myself dates to leave on or coming up with thought up plans. Unless it can count as a plan to just wait until I have enough reliable substances to take whenever things get too unbearable. I haven't even done as much research into things as I should have. At this point I'll most likely go suddenly, or at least just attempt suddenly, since my circumstances can be unknown sometimes and I also just don't know when everything will hit in the right portions that I'd go through with anything, many times there's just not enough energy. With any luck(?) I could just hang myself and be gone within a few hours, and very few people would even realize quickly. So I don't have plans, but I would say I'm definitely suicidal, always passively when not actively.

 

[whatevs]

Suicidality comes in an spectrum, and I am below the planning line but above the never crosses my mind line. Hopefully I get below this last position in the future instead of getting more and more lost in the dark woods.

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

I don't really have any date or schedule other than to ensure I have the tools and knowledge needed before I lack either the resources to get the things I will need or the physical ability to carry it out. More of an insurance policy against being forced to live in misery when I invariably face homelessness or prolonged physical/psychological suffering.

 

[Britvik]

I don't count myself as suicidal. While I've pondered the option countless times, I've only ever considered it more seriously on a couple of occasions.

I became a member for a few reasons. Firstly, to learn more about methods, should my life ever become overwhelmed with inescapable, permanent, unbearable suffering (e.g. from illness). Secondly, to discuss the various challenges life presents that can lead a person to want to end their life. And, finally, as someone who has stepped back from the brink and found reasons to continue, I felt I may have experience worth sharing.

To be clear: I don't want to judge anybody, or preach salvation, etc.! I'm a firm believer in personal autonomy and the right to end one's life. But, I'm also a firm believer in free speech and offering help/understanding/support when possible.

P.S. My favoured methods are either N (obviously?) and then inert gas + exit bag.

 

[lostmylove]

I wasn't actively suicidal to a week ago, I've had periods where I've been close but I had a good 6 months of not really wanting death. Massive traumatic event pushed me back to extremely suicidal now I need to walk the plank as I have no future.

Overall life hasn't got better for me and it's now impossible for it to get better.

 

[Insomniac]

I don't have a specific date but I'll do it spontaneously soon enough

 

[Parnate]

I am suicidal at this very moment, but I am a wishful thinker and I hope that somehow things will get better, some antidepressant will work.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I am not presently suicidal, although there are means in my house in case I change my mind. I think often about getting rid of the means, but I just can't bring my self to do that. I'm mostly afraid that I might have a tougher time getting my hands on something later.

I am here because of my husband. I cannot imagine leaving him behind. He loves me more than I deserve and I just can't hurt him like that.

He knows that I struggle with bipolar disorder and I know that he worries, but I won't go willingly now.

Unfortunately, my suicidality is driven by my mental illness so I may not always be able to see so clearly.

 

[Angel_01]

I'm depressed and hopeless sometimes but I'm am too scared to actually commit, at least for now.

Right now I'm trying to figure out a way to move forward despite my future looking grim and my dreams being crushed.

 

[Whyamidoingthis]

I kinda have a plan but it's not really set in stone. It's mostly that I don't really see a point in life past September or so, and the seasonal depression will probably kick in about them and I'll only be feeling worse. I've looked at the tools they use to assess how suicidal people are, and if I were planning to ctb tomorrow, they'd freak out and institutionalize me, but since I only plan to in like 6 months I don't think they can legally do anything in my state without my permission.
I mean, if I can figure this shit out before september, that would be cool but I do kinda feel like my suicide is inevitable and if I don't do it in September I'm going to end up doing it once I get out of college, or when I get a very stressful job, or whenever the stress is too much.

 

[Of The Universe]

I wasn't actively suicidal to a week ago, I've had periods where I've been close but I had a good 6 months of not really wanting death. Massive traumatic event pushed me back to extremely suicidal now I need to walk the plank as I have no future.

Overall life hasn't got better for me and it's now impossible for it to get better.

What happened ?

 

[DuckieWaddles]

I'm not actively suicidal but I do have 2 plans and the materials needed for them (night night or TCA/digitalis OD), for a rainy day.

 

[Johnhawk_Down]

no, no one here would ever consider such things