Anybody here feel like CTB because their brain is weird

[Painless_end]

As opposed to being depressed, do you feel not depressed but want to CTB because brain is weird and you are unable to adjust to daily life ?

Also mention your age if you will.

 

[Anthagonos]

As opposed to being depressed, do you feel not depressed but want to CTB because brain is weird and you are unable to adjust to daily life ?

Also mention your age if you will.

I think my brain worked following a strange behaviour. For example I refused lots of opportunities with girls and I still dont know why. Maybe is I feel very insecure about myself.

Also I didnt got a university degree being a great student.

34 years. This happens to me from age 12 I think.

When I was 21 I started crying without reason.
I spent 6 years in a job that I didnt like and I dont know why I thought about changing job in those 6 year...

I have always thought my brain doesnt works well.

 

[bigdog]

I have organic brain damage it is hell

 

[greekyfish10]

i have always thought my brain was weird and i'm still not sure if it is because of mental illness because i've never been diagnosed, but i do have some symptoms of certain mental illnesses. but then again i don't want to self diagnose myself with anything if i'm not sure. i guess just all my life things have felt "off" but i think probably lots of people feel that way. also i'm 18.

 

[Lupgevif]

Yes. But I can't explain. Maybe my therapists are right and I'm just dramatic. But they still can't explain why never truly fit among my friends.

 

[waterbottleman]

I am depressed but yes I also feel like my brain is weird.

I can't connect with others, there is something "off" about me that I don't even understand but I can just feel it.

 

[LostAllHope7651]

Definitely I feel like that,
Hate been alone but don't like to socialise, hate been at home but hate been at work with people... drives me crazy. No many understand but I do, feeling like your defaulted in life, no right for this world cos you don't work like others, been unhappy and not knowing how to solve it just wanting to be on your own so you don't need to put a front on but at the same time hating that you cant just be happy like other xz

 

[rt1989526]

Yes I have borderline personality disorder and studies show people like me have different sized amygdala (regulates emotion) and frontolimbic section of the brain, which causes us to interpret life differently. You can ultimately train the brain to react differently with therapy and practice but for me I didn't realize it until it was too late, now I'm here.

 

[NeedToD]

Yes. My attitude is always very dull just about all of the time. I don't ever seem to want to put in the effort to act like others around me, even if I know that people around me are bad mouthing me because of it. And I really don't mind being a recluse. Hell, it could be because I didn't develop properly when I was a kid. But nowadays I'm confident that it's because my brain is hard wired differently.

 

[Painless_end]

Yes. My attitude is always very dull just about all of the time. I don't ever seem to want to put in the effort to act like others around me, even if I know that people around me are bad mouthing me because of it. And I really don't mind being a recluse. Hell, it could be because I didn't develop properly when I was a kid. But nowadays I'm confident that it's because my brain is hard wired differently.

You sound a lot like me. For me it's a harsh reality to live with. Having to get up everyday and be motivated to "improve" myself just because I live with my parents.

The outside world is too difficult for me. I can barely function sometimes, I get so paralyzed due to the overwhelming sensory overload everywhere.

Not having any life goals is problematic in itself. But when you combine that with a deep fundamental intrinsic desire to not do even the so-called "practical" stuff, it's a recipe for disaster in anyone's life.

 

[Meditation guide]

want to CTB because brain is weird and you are unable to adjust to daily life ?

I don't get enough oxygen and am in a fog most of the time. Constant pain too messes with your mind making bad decisions.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes. My mind is telling me to ctb 24/7

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

This is a huge part of it for me. I feel so isolated with my beliefs and opinions compared to the people around me in California. Sometimes I wish I could have grown up in the Deep South so that at least I'd look like the people I agree with. Then again I sometimes think I'm just naturally contrarian so maybe I would also be unhappy no matter who I'm around. At least if I was rebelling against that type of environment though I'd be on the proper side that Hollywood and many people on the internet agree with though.

 

[BrokenLine]

Do i think i have an average brain no, but does anybody. But yes I know I'm not normal, with how i think. Truth is I really don't get or understand most people, I may ask more upfront questions instead of asking 20 over a week just to get to that point. I try to be friendly upfront and honest and I know can be off putting. I've tried other ways and I never feel like me so I would rather not feel like I'm lying if the end results are always the same. If I could change the things that are trapping me keeping me in this same cycle would I, In a heartbeat.