I haven't set a date yet but I feel very excited. I've been tempted to do it on a holiday just for one last celebration, because that's the note I wanna go out on, but it feels selfish to ruin a holiday for others, so I think my birthday in February would be perfect.
It's sad to think I've mismanaged my relationship with myself so completely that the thought of just not being here anymore would put a smile on my face. I think the amount of suffering in the world will be lessened and the energy and ingredients of my body will be put to better use. Something is wrong with my brain to where I'm not sure my life is worth living.
It is good to know I have my final party waiting for me though. Nobody will know why I'm so happy that day.
Do you guys have anything nice planned for the day you ctb?
It's sad to think I've mismanaged my relationship with myself so completely that the thought of just not being here anymore would put a smile on my face. I think the amount of suffering in the world will be lessened and the energy and ingredients of my body will be put to better use. Something is wrong with my brain to where I'm not sure my life is worth living.
It is good to know I have my final party waiting for me though. Nobody will know why I'm so happy that day.
Do you guys have anything nice planned for the day you ctb?
