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Feb 3, 2026
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Just wondering. Because even though i'm technically finishing my undergrad this december, i'm not motivated to work and ig im going to end up a NEET. already live that life (i binge watch movies the whole day and do next to zero productive stuff). do you guys also wonder what will happen after your parents pass? because it's something i think about often- since i don't feel close to anyone.
and i'd like to ctb but my si keeps getting in the way.
 
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Jul 22, 2026
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I'll be passing before my parents, so I don't think about that.

But Im waiting 1 year after I graduate, to fully decide if I will CTB. To see if life gets better. So I will maybe CTB in the summer of 2028.

But I'm 99% sure that Im going to do it.

But it'll be nice to have 1 year where I can plan everything and then also do some things I've wanted to do, such as play some video games.

I've saved up around 7K. I don't really have anything to buy but in my final year I can just buy all the food I want and games and movies.

I'll probably have a lot of money left over because I can't even really do much other then bed rot but maybe that's because of the stress of school.

There's still a 1% chance I don't CTB… if life after university just magically gets better for me. But extremely unlikely as I'm neurodivergent.
 
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It is a very damaging form of existence and contrary to what some people think, is rarely a choice.
 
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