Venting another vent..no improvement again.

[lok_sat]

months have passed since i started to try and detach myself from the people i been attached & obsessed with + 3 failed exist attempts to add to it, ended up going back to therapy getting precribed the same SSRI anti depressant and a new anti psychotic -which worked for a month- yet the more time passes the more i realise i'm not over this aattachment nor do i feel any better, i still wish to die so badly, i still feel hurt whenever these people aren't around me or have any slight change towards me.

it has been even worst since i started to experince something akin to hallucinations but im not so sure, my surroundings would morph around me into familiar locations, i would go on to have conversations with people i knew and stranges both jsut fine then go on my day doing my usual routine till something start to feel or look off...that's when i start to realise that none of this was real, i have been sitting talk to myself the entire time, othertimes i would have something similar to endless dream loops and multiple false awakining when im laying in bed except that i have been wide awake the entire time.

this has been long again but i honestly have nobody to talk with or anything of sort so had to come back to SASU and let this all out before an other attempt i guess.

 

[FishRain3469]

Don't know much/ experience the hallucinations... But the attached/ obsession with people I can certainly understand and relate to. I think a lot of it is my fault 2 a degree, so I can't totally blame them. Damnt tho.... Fckk... It's almost maddening.

Thoughts and prayers to you in this thing we call...... Life. =/