Another night of crying

[torturedbylife]

Because of loneliness. Because I have no one. 0 friends. No one to share things with, no one to vent to, no one to have intellectual conversations. I just talk to myself in my head.
I'm very stressed because of this online schooling bs. In about a month I have exams too but I lost all my hopes thst I'll pass them. I'm too braindead to memorize or understand anything. It's too much to learn.
Because I have a shitty family that doesn't love me. I actually feel like I don't have any family at all.
Because I'm still thinking about that person I really wanted to get to know and become friends with. But he didn't want in return. And it hurts me, it really hurts.
I truly believe I have nothing to live for. I was made only to suffer. Life selected me as number one target to make fun of. That's why my username torturedbylife.
I'm getting even and even more desperate. With each second that passes I feel like doing an unreasonable thing because of my desperation...
I wish I could be hugged and feel warmth. But it's impossible...
I'm done.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

So sorry for what you have had to endure. I wish you the best in your exams. I wish you could get away from your family. Feel free to share and vent on here.
I know it's not the same as having friends IRL but sometimes it's easier to say things on here than I can to my friends anyway.
Whatever you decide to do we are here to listen.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Being lonely to that extent is horrible. Please don't do anything desperate. Stay on hear and I'm sure people will listen to you vent. It's no solution, but it may help.

 

[itssasssh144]

I really would hug you, if we were anywhere near in person. I understand this maddening pain of loneliness. Life is incredibly torturous but, I, and yourself are still here (I would say this is an unfortunate thing for the both of us, as well as the rest of the website.. but it's something. I'd look to the brighter side). I am here to talk to if you would like to shoot me a message, as I'm quite lonely and extremely anxious myself. Only company can somewhat take my mind off of certain things temporarily. I hope I can do the same, if you'd like. Don't give up just yet