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StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
"Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die?"

Anyone else using music / lyrics to "brainwash" themselves to help overcome SI with "high-SI" methods?




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orlandom

Mage
Mar 4, 2021
514
Music and alcohol are powerful stimulants.
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
"Find another place to feed your greed,
while I find a place to rest..."

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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
Come with me, I know the way
It is down, down, down the dark ladder
Do you wanna contact somebody first?
Maybe leave someone a letter?
I mean, what does it really matter?
You're gonna come now or
You're gonna come later...
 
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Some1's_Wasted_Fetus

Student
Mar 20, 2021
174
"Find another place to feed your greed,
while I find a place to rest..."

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That was definitely foreshadowing! loved Linkin Park back in the day. Transformers (the first two films) was when I was first exposed haha. Didn't the lead singer pass a few years back from ctb?
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,845
Tremens factus sum ego et timeo (I quake with fear and I tremble)

Dies illa (day of mourning)
Dies illa (day of mourning)
Dies irae (day of wrath)

Calamitatis et miseriae (of calamity, of misery)
Dies magna et amara valde (the greatest day, and most bitter)

 
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StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
"Find another place to feed your greed,
while I find a place to rest..."

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What are the odds? My Stasi mother is playing Linkin Park on heir Alexa right now!
@WornOutLife sure your not also an operative? :pfff:
I always suspected you might be an AI.
 
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Carrotcake

Carrotcake

Experienced
Nov 27, 2019
265


This one gets me going
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
That was definitely foreshadowingI loved Linkin Park back in the day. Transformers (the first two films) was when I was first exposed haha. Didn't the lead singer pass a few years back from ctb?
Yess! Chester ctb. I miss him so much :(
 
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onthelastday

I died long before i met you.
Apr 16, 2021
109
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
I've heard it a gazillion times, but it still works. Thom Yorke is probably the most effective SI killer alive

Cracked eggs, dead birds
Scream as they fight for life
I can feel death, can see its beady eyes...

 
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hahabye

hahabye

always say never
Sep 14, 2019
314
Something about the deeply relatable lyrics with the semi-happy tunes by Twenty One Pilots hit the sweet spot for me

Every time I feel selfish ambition
Is taking my vision
And my crime is my sentence
Repentance is taking commission
It's taking a toll
On my soul
I'm screaming submission and,
I don't know if I am dying or living
'Cause I will save face
For name's sake
Abuse grace
Take aim to obtain a new name
And a newer place
But my name is lame
I can't walk and I ain't the same
And my name became
A new destiny to the grave

 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
If you'd been a dog
They would have drowned you at birth
Look into my eyes
It's the only way you'll know I'm telling the truth

 
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eclipse

Member
Apr 14, 2021
38
Hey that's from Johnny Winter! Suprised to see it sampled in a Tupac song.

 
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StateOfMind

StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
1,195
Tremens factus sum ego et timeo (I quake with fear and I tremble)

Dies illa (day of mourning)
Dies illa (day of mourning)
Dies irae (day of wrath)

Calamitatis et miseriae (of calamity, of misery)
Dies magna et amara valde (the greatest day, and most bitter)


Interesting, unfortunately for me this is just noise - can't really make heads or tails from this :pfff:
 
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Cockney_Rebel

Everything you want is on the other side of fear.
Jan 7, 2021
455
"Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die?"

Anyone else using music / lyrics to "brainwash" themselves to help overcome SI with "high-SI" methods?




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Yes, Ordinary World by Duran Duran.

"I won't cry for yesterday, there's an ordinary world I must find ... "

 
Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
This one's been 'the' song for me for a while.

"Answer no master, never the slave
Carry your dreams down into the grave
Every heart, like every soul
Equal to break"





"I'm going to do it" by Giles Corey is also a good one if you wanna be straight up depressed.
 
GarageKarate07

GarageKarate07

Wizard
Aug 18, 2020
675
"Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die?"

Anyone else using music / lyrics to "brainwash" themselves to help overcome SI with "high-SI" methods?




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If Mr tupac is in heaven/ afterlife then it cant be all that bad. More reason to go. Nobody wants to be in this shitty world. Anyone who says they do is kinda joking/ lying to themselves. There are good things here but we are fucked. We are the reason that we are not happy and living in a great world. Maybe someday but not the next few years. Nobody really really gives a shit here in this world. Saying you care and showing you care are 2 different things. No one cares if the ones cast away die or not. Even if they cry when you CTB where the fuck were they to help when you were alive? So many dead for no good reasons other than society let itself down and that with people who CTB or not. Just regular people are fucking dead cuz they are broke or not needed or don't fill a purpose. It's just fucking sick. The whole thing is just fucking sick and fucking disgusting!!
"Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die?"

Anyone else using music / lyrics to "brainwash" themselves to help overcome SI with "high-SI" methods?




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Also. I have a TUPAC story.

Ahem..... When I was stationed in San Antonio me and a friend would walk around the Base and smoke and just talk to get away from command. We were ditching. Fuck the military. We walked by the giant obstacle course and we found a blue Tupac shirt. We climbed the obstacles and tied it to the top of one of the poles. It didnt really make a "flag" but it was there none the less. It stayed there for about a week. We would ride by on the bus and look and laugh every time we saw it still flapping there.

"Tupac is still there!"
"Nobody will take Tupac down!"
"That shit is STILL there!?"

All week it went on. It was sad when we finally saw that it was gone. It was great until then. We told a few friends and they laughed also. For another small moment "Tupac lived on!".
 
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