Venting Alright people, my time has come, but I need one last thing

[Stock Man]

Hello SaSu,

HUGE TRIGGER WARNING FOR PEOPLE SENSITIVE TO PLANS AND STUFF!!

I have been on these forums for a while (not NEARLY as long as I'm sure a lot of you have), and I have been helped out of some dark stuff. However, I have reached a conclusion and have been of sound mind for a long while now;
It's time for me to go.

I've been preparing for a while, and I have made up my mind. Except for one crucial thing:

How shall I go about catching that bus?


After (I kid you not) years of research and deliberation and many conversations with many people, I have narrowed it down to 2.

Option one, I get very VERY drunk, lock myself in the bathroom and drown myself in the tub, perhaps take several melatonin or Benadryl, and maybe also duct tape my mouth to keep vomit down and let it choke me even.

Option two, a hose, a lot of duct tape, and my vehicle. Simple as that.

I'd really appreciate it if you would help me out. I'm still a few days away, possibly a week or two, but I know that this is what I need and what I want. I'll leave the poll results public, and the poll itself will be active for four days. If you have questions or advice or even a different method, I'd love to talk! But please don't try to convince me to do otherwise.

Ive felt welcome here. Ive felt connected here. I know this forum isn't pro-suicide, and to anyone reading this who is also interested in getting on board that last bus, I seriously urge you to seek help (I have been working with many professionals over the years and it helped keep the thoughts at bay for a while, but they would always come back. It felt like I was depriving myself, and today I realized that I was ready.) and to not make a decision unless you are absolutely sure, and of sound mind. This is a community of people who are open and open minded. I am very grateful to have somewhere to share my thoughts where I won't be tied down and put into a hospital for sharing them.

Thank you so much,
SM

 

[Nightfoot]

If your vehicle was made before 1975 and doesn't have a catalytic converter, option two might be possible. Otherwise it's not going to generate enough carbon monoxide. Option one seems unlikely to work.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Neither, unless you just want pain (which I doubt) and a small chance of death (also not something u probably want) in practice.

Drowning = non method due to pain and survival instinct likely stopping one from completing it
Car exhaust = obsolete method with catalytic converters from cars approximately made after 1990s or so (some cars before then have them too)

 

[itsnotokayy!22]

I don't think either of these options are safe or wise...and si will definitely kick in during first option

 

[itsgone2]

I've tried variations of each. Both unlikely to work, but at least with 2 you can make the attempt. One I don't think your body will allow you to.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Hey, interesting methods. I wouldn't involve alcohol in any method, for me the effects are just too unpredictable. As for option 2, I don't know enough about cars... but if you know enough I think that is the better one. All the best!

 

[perishsong]

I would say neither.

Alcohol is a two-way street, plus your SI can, and will, kick in - drowning is painful, and tape can be ripped off when your body is desperate to survive.

As for two, unless you drive an old car without a catalytic converter, there's no way you could generate enough CO to CTB. A more efficient source of CO would be needed.

 

[eternalpace]

I agree with the consensus of replies above me. Neither option is likely to work. I won't go into detail because their explanations and justifications for both of your methods not working are quite accurate.

 

[Stock Man]

So, what would you recommend instead?

 

[itsgone2]

So, what would you recommend instead?

I'm not sure I clearly understand the rules on here as it seems we can't advise each other on a method. But idk feels like it happens a lot. Anyway I think only real options are what are commonly discussed on the site, though seems to depend on where you live, if SN actually available or not.

 

[At The Bus Stop]

As the above mentioned, it's something only you can really decide. We can't actively tell you how to do it. Only provide things to help you make a decision.

Reading through the non-methods and the compilation would be the starting point, but that's the easy answer that doesn't break any rules. As already mentioned, hanging and SN seem to be the popular choices.

But that's a decision you have to make, and I wish you all the best making it.

 

[Stock Man]

Thank you for the resources. In the moment, it seems like such a simple task to take your own life but man it's difficult. I know I have to but the methods are so vast and varied. If I had a gun id be happy. I have a bullet, maybe I should try to make some sort of firing mechanism to activate the primer. Hanging seems like a great idea, I just need to find a suitable spot lol. Thanks for letting me vent about this and for not encouraging it. Makes me feel like there's people who get it

 

[wanna_die]

Hello SaSu,

HUGE TRIGGER WARNING FOR PEOPLE SENSITIVE TO PLANS AND STUFF!!

I have been on these forums for a while (not NEARLY as long as I'm sure a lot of you have), and I have been helped out of some dark stuff. However, I have reached a conclusion and have been of sound mind for a long while now;
It's time for me to go.

I've been preparing for a while, and I have made up my mind. Except for one crucial thing:

How shall I go about catching that bus?


After (I kid you not) years of research and deliberation and many conversations with many people, I have narrowed it down to 2.

Option one, I get very VERY drunk, lock myself in the bathroom and drown myself in the tub, perhaps take several melatonin or Benadryl, and maybe also duct tape my mouth to keep vomit down and let it choke me even.

Option two, a hose, a lot of duct tape, and my vehicle. Simple as that.

I'd really appreciate it if you would help me out. I'm still a few days away, possibly a week or two, but I know that this is what I need and what I want. I'll leave the poll results public, and the poll itself will be active for four days. If you have questions or advice or even a different method, I'd love to talk! But please don't try to convince me to do otherwise.

Ive felt welcome here. Ive felt connected here. I know this forum isn't pro-suicide, and to anyone reading this who is also interested in getting on board that last bus, I seriously urge you to seek help (I have been working with many professionals over the years and it helped keep the thoughts at bay for a while, but they would always come back. It felt like I was depriving myself, and today I realized that I was ready.) and to not make a decision unless you are absolutely sure, and of sound mind. This is a community of people who are open and open minded. I am very grateful to have somewhere to share my thoughts where I won't be tied down and put into a hospital for sharing them.

Thank you so much,
SM

Neither of those options sounds reliable. There is a big risk that you might survive both scenarios.