budbud29
Member
- May 8, 2026
- 28
Since joining honestly it feels nice to relate to a lot of people on here. I'm not sure when I'm gonna do it or if I'm gonna do it, but if I stay on this earth I know I'll be a burden. I'm 29. I have no job. I feel like I can't function outside of my room. I really think there's something wrong with me. I've been to many therapists and doctors. I'm in college online but I'm literally cheating because I have no energy or motivation to do the work. It really sucks. I really look up to people that are independent and seem like they have it together. I'm 29 and I live with my sister. I don't have a car anymore because I got two DUIs. My mind has always been messed up. I was repeatedly raped when I was four in a foster home. I honestly believe that destroyed any chance of me having a life. That sexual abuse got into me way too early for me to be helped. I keep watching videos of hanging and I keep reading stories about people that.Ctb by hanging to try to make myself feel more comfortable about doing it. I saw this one video of a 12 year-old girl hang herself because she was being sexually abused. I felt horrible seeing that it made me really sad. Has anyone else on here been sexually abused?
