After childhood whats the point?

[hihi2027]

Youre happy then you grow up and realize everything you were told as a child was a lie. All dreams go down the drain, what little friends you had drift off to newer pastures, parents get more disappointed by the day, your rejection of life increases day by day, year by year. Ive basically realized that we work our entire lives as dreams pass by, have off spring that dont even like you, then die. Im planning on ending it all this year. im so tired

 

[Salkak]

I understand. I have never understood the point of life. Even if everything was working out fine in my life, I'd still kms

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Because childhood is just childhood, and life is about evolving, so it's clear why you'd prefer death.

You got to be happy as a child? What a luxury! For many people it's the opposite, where adulthood & independence mean they finally get a chance at happiness & freedom from all the abuse they were forced to endure every day as children.

 

[never mind me]

I certainly would never again wish to be a child. The time from 10 to 16 was objectively the worst time of my life and even before it wasn't great (although not quite as bad and I also forgot a lot over the years and that really is a blessing). Regardless, the years immediately after moving out from my parents' house felt harder mentally (despite not being too bad objectively), because my hope that everything would be fine once I escape my parents was shattered.

 

[hihi2027]

Because childhood is just childhood, and life is about evolving, so it's clear why you'd prefer death.

You got to be happy as a child? What a luxury! For many people it's the opposite, where adulthood & independence mean they finally get a chance at happiness & freedom from all the abuse they were forced to endure every day as children.

Yeah i guess thats one way to look at it, although to be honest my time as a child/teen wasnt that great in all honestly. There might be some good memories here and there but its riddled with anxiety, depression and lonliness still that persists to this day. Your child years are the fundamental years so, if you get messed up here, i dont know if there's much chance for "happiness" as an adult. Youre just screwed.

I certainly would never again wish to be a child. The time from 10 to 16 was objectively the worst time of my life and even before it wasn't great (although not quite as bad and I also forgot a lot over the years and that really is a blessing). Regardless, the years immediately after moving out from my parents' house felt harder mentally (despite not being too bad objectively), because my hope that everything would be fine once I escape my parents was shattered.

This is pretty much why im planning to end it soon. I can blame other people for my issues but at the end of the day, we live with ourselves the most. I realized at 12 that i wont amount to much in life and planned to end things at 18. Well fast forward and i have 4 attempts on my hand with nothing to show for it. Im a failure. Right now im making a plan to actually get it right but im in no rush. Suicide is not to be rushed into is what ive realized. Just need to get everything in order, find somewhere nice and private, find a strong method and finally finish myself off once and for all.