Venting Afraid you gonna die before you decide

[Foreversad]

Havent still told my family but the last month my health subsided a lot .i was actually told that if my surgery delays theres a risk ill die. Still i never considered it as a serious statement .i can actually feel that im getting lost thats why i end up doing the things i loved when myself was there healthy and did .im actually afraid of the possibility i die before i could decide my own destiny .i wanna have control over it . anyone else?

 

[CoolGuy9]

Havent still told my family but the last month my health subsided a lot .i was actually told that if my surgery delays theres a risk ill die. Still i never considered it as a serious statement .i can actually feel that im getting lost thats why i end up doing the things i loved when myself was there healthy and did .im actually afraid of the possibility i die before i could decide my own destiny .i wanna have control over it . anyone else?

I can relate. Sometimes the idea of being killed by a car accident or something scares me despite being suicidal.