Advice on how to deal with self destructive thought

[splashofvanilla]

I have just reacently told a friend about my depression and it went well they were supportive but i have this deep seated feeling of dread tellimg me that i shouldnt have done it

Any advice on how to deal with this thoughts

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Have they given you indications in things they've said that they may report or squeal on you to someone? Did you just tell them you were depressed, or did you tell them something more, like you were thinking about ending your life? Are your thoughts actually based upon something in reality, something you know about your friend and what they might actually do, to thwart you, if you should attempt to ctb? The next time you talk to your friend maybe do a good acting job (assuming you are still depressed and maybe still suicidal), and tell them how much better you are feeling, and show it, too, and see what they say and how they react. If they say something like how happy they are that you are feeling better, then maybe you can put your dread feelings to rest, knowing that you convinced them that you are doing better.

 

[splashofvanilla]

Have they given you indications in things they've said that they may report or squeal on you to someone? Did you just tell them you were depressed, or did you tell them something more, like you were thinking about ending your life? Are your thoughts actually based upon something in reality, something you know about your friend and what they might actually do, to thwart you, if you should attempt to ctb? The next time you talk to your friend maybe do a good acting job (assuming you are still depressed and maybe still suicidal), and tell them how much better you are feeling, and show it, too, and see what they say and how they react. If they say something like how happy they are that you are feeling better, then maybe you can put your dread feelings to rest, knowing that you convinced them that you are doing better.

Thanks man you have just made me question reality

If i had been able to tell them that i was suicidal yesterday i would have exploded i could barely form a sentence

I did it thanks to the dangerous drug called hope now i feel like shit for telling them. They cant stop me from ctb that is why i told them i was depressed in the first place i live in south america here the police doesnt do suicide nor anything really and my family thinks of me as a failure and a psycho for having emotions so yeah at this point i dont even know why i did it