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LivedAndNotLoved

LivedAndNotLoved

Leaving here, need to give life another shot!
Feb 28, 2020
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I think I've finally accepted that life is always going to be one long shit show. I did have some kind of hope that one day things may get a little bit better, or a little less unbearable. But it never will. Hope is a fucking dangerous thing.

Spent most of my pathetic life living depressed because when it comes down to it it's all because I cant live up to peoples' standards/expectations. Ugh.
 
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Darkhaven

All i have left is memories
May 19, 2019
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For me there is no escape. Everything is lined up in a way that barely leaves me any chances of turning life around. It will be either an early death or suffering and a shit load of depression and angs for the rest of time. Maybe it was already bound to happen since i was born. Right now there is only a decision worth making.
 
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jgm63

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Oct 28, 2019
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I think I've finally accepted that life is always going to be one long shit show. I did have some kind of hope that one day things may get a little bit better, or a little less unbearable. But it never will. Hope is a fucking dangerous thing.

Spent most of my pathetic life living depressed because when it comes down to it it's all because I cant live up to peoples' standards/expectations. Ugh.
But I guess their expectations are what's wrong, and not you.
So why not free yourself from those expectations ?
Can you distance yourself from toxic people ?
 
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Esc9434

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Feb 25, 2020
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I think I've finally accepted that life is always going to be one long shit show. I did have some kind of hope that one day things may get a little bit better, or a little less unbearable. But it never will. Hope is a fucking dangerous thing.

Spent most of my pathetic life living depressed because when it comes down to it it's all because I cant live up to peoples' standards/expectations. Ugh.

Most people cannot even live up to the expectations that they set for others.

Productive people don't have time to worry about what other people are doing because they are busy. These people are the ones who will help pull you up to their level.

Anyone who has time to sit around worry about what you are or aren't doing is toxic.

This life is yours and only yours. Set your own expectations, and live up to them.

As long as you are able to support yourself, and not a burden to anyone, you are doing fine.
 
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Hollow Point

Hollow Point

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Mar 24, 2020
120
I'm with you. I've accepted if I'm to stay, I gotta float down a river of shit in this life. The nice thing about it, is I dont really get in super sad mindsets anymore. Been there too many times, I've run out of self pity and sadness. Like a zen depression ha
 
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LivedAndNotLoved

Leaving here, need to give life another shot!
Feb 28, 2020
39
But I guess their expectations are what's wrong, and not you.
So why not free yourself from those expectations ?
Can you distance yourself from toxic people ?
Theres only one toxic person left in my life but they themselves are not toxic for me, it's the situation where both in. Does that make sense? And it's hard to break free from it. It feels like an addiction.
I'm with you. I've accepted if I'm to stay, I gotta float down a river of shit in this life. The nice thing about it, is I dont really get in super sad mindsets anymore. Been there too many times, I've run out of self pity and sadness. Like a zen depression ha
Yeah it's just accepting that life will not get easier. I get what you mean. All I want to do is stay in my home on my own and drink every single day until it's done.
Most people cannot even live up to the expectations that they set for others.

Productive people don't have time to worry about what other people are doing because they are busy. These people are the ones who will help pull you up to their level.

Anyone who has time to sit around worry about what you are or aren't doing is toxic.

This life is yours and only yours. Set your own expectations, and live up to them.

As long as you are able to support yourself, and not a burden to anyone, you are doing fine.
My expectations are so basic. Wake up everyday and get through it.
 
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jgm63

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Oct 28, 2019
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Theres only one toxic person left in my life but they themselves are not toxic for me, it's the situation where both in. Does that make sense? And it's hard to break free from it. It feels like an addiction.

Yeah it's just accepting that life will not get easier. I get what you mean. All I want to do is stay in my home on my own and drink every single day until it's done.

My expectations are so basic. Wake up everyday and get through it.
But with enough love (of yourself), addictions can be broken.
But first you have to decide that you're going to, "come what may".
 

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