About to CBT - jump

[Graham]

High

 

[FuneralCry]

Jumping sounds like such a terrifying way to leave this world. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.

 

[hopelessdreams]

rest in peace beautiful soul

 

[Medicmedic72]

I'm sorry it has come to this for you. I hope you find relief from your suffering.

 

[Someone123]

How high?

 

[Graham]

How high?

About 700ft - was a climb

Don't want to give away location

A million thoughts racing through my head

Dark and no one around

Strange sensation of calm control yet out of control if that makes sense





Look after yourselves gx

 

[Nlis2244]

May you find peace wathever you do.

 

[Eternal🌈Rainbow]

❤❤❤

 

[HelpMeToday]

Stay there and don't jump. Love you x

 

[Graham]

 

[Foresight]

It's amazing how music stays with us through it all. I've never watched a Sinatra performance, amazing and soothing. I wish life hadn't led you to this cliff.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Wo, how near to the edge are you?

 

[jimmy7754]

Man I want to do it.. every time I'm near a location I just can't get myself to go..

 

[September5th]

Jumpiness does sound... Exciting actually. I hope you have a swift and well deserved death.

 

[fastFWD]

jumping off the grand canyon has always been in the back of my head. soaring through the air as if i were flying sounds nice. i hope you have found peace friend :(

 

[jimmy7754]

jumping off the grand canyon has always been in the back of my head. soaring through the air as if i were flying sounds nice. i hope you have found peace friend :(

Oh man I'd do that with you

 

[Judy Garland]

I hope you find peace whichever you choose to do. I'd be too afraid of jumping. You have more courage than I.

 

[Graham]

Fucking cowarded it by not going fast enough and got caught

Still fooked - dunno what's mext

Just a mess

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Fucking cowarded it by not going fast enough and got caught

Still fooked - dunno what's mext

Just a mess

That's okay bro, who caught you?

 

[Graham]

That's okay bro, who caught you?

Security
Such a waste of space

Can't even kill myself

Fucking self preservation brain kicks in

Think I need to be high as a kite to pull it off

I'm a useless cunt

That's okay bro, who caught you?

I can't do overdose ... probably fuck it up

All in on jumping

Got places now

Just need self preservation brain to fuck off

Annoying

That's okay bro, who caught you?

Thanks for nice comment

Thanks bro

Man I want to do it.. every time I'm near a location I just can't get myself to go..

Fucking annoying bro

Oh man I'd do that with you

If I had money to come I would

rest in peace beautiful soul

That's such a lovely thing to say - I didn't do it in the end - useless prick I am

But thanks for such a nice statement

X

I hope you find peace whichever you choose to do. I'd be too afraid of jumping. You have more courage than I.

Zero courage - fucked it again
I'm a useless cunt
Thought maybe OD is better - but not 100% success

Just got to override brain self preservation

Literally kicks in last minute

Supposed that's why the human race has survived

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I'm sorry it has gotten to this point): I know it's not the desired outcome, SI is a hellavu mind fuck, but it's still nice to have you around(: Try and drink some water or take a nap<3
I'm sorry it has gotten to this point): I know it's not the desired outcome, SI is a hellavu mind fuck, but it's still nice to have you around(: Try and drink some water or take a nap<3

 

[Graham]

I'm sorry it has gotten to this point): I know it's not the desired outcome, SI is a hellavu mind fuck, but it's still nice to have you around(: Try and drink some water or take a nap<3
I'm sorry it has gotten to this point): I know it's not the desired outcome, SI is a hellavu mind fuck, but it's still nice to have you around(: Try and drink some water or take a nap<3

 

[Graham]

Got the bad news I was half expecting today - no job

Binned off and my appeal failed

Told them of my mental health but they don't care

Nice

Fuck them

Not sure what I'm going to do

Try new jobs or just fuck it

So tired

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Got the bad news I was half expecting today - no job

Binned off and my appeal failed

Told them of my mental health but they don't care

Nice

Fuck them

Not sure what I'm going to do

Try new jobs or just fuck it

So tired

Jesus, what scumbags. I'm not surprised about not caring about mental health though; it's still what just happens (no matter what people say). Maybe you can NEET for a bit with benefits?

 

[Klophy]

My plan was to jump as well, also didn't go through with it.

Here's hoping to next time, or better yet some miracle to fix our lives.

 

[Graham]

My plan was to jump as well, also didn't go through with it.

Here's hoping to next time, or better yet some miracle to fix our lives.

Yeah x

 

[picklemick]

Sorry my friend

 

[Graham]

Sorry my friend

 

[Graham]

Still my choice of CBT

Just fighting on and trying to make like work for now

Thanks for all the comments

Love to you all

 

[Graham]

Some other shit that fucks me up is... if you commit suicide, to me, that's it.

Fucking dead as a Dodo... finished... lights out... no more pain... gone

You didn't exist just like you came into the world

Don't believe in religion or reincarnation - yet still in the back of my mind if you commit suicide you'll end up reliving it on loop forever - purgatory

That's fucking worse than I got now

Ffs

Crazy how your mind plays tricks on you to keep you alive
I'm a proper fucked up sack of shit