Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
- 794
I have a special kind of neurological weakness. It's a complete lack of desire to engage in any productive activity.
A complete weariness of the soul that should have killed me, but hasn't. Because dumb self preservation to avoid pain and blackness of death.
My weakness is so penetrating that I have to plan or change my activities on a minute to minute basis so I can survive.
It isn't really a life, even though I'm physically alive. It's a barely scraped together existence on this physical plane.
There is no reason for me to continue existing but my weakness won't let me CTB.
A complete weariness of the soul that should have killed me, but hasn't. Because dumb self preservation to avoid pain and blackness of death.
My weakness is so penetrating that I have to plan or change my activities on a minute to minute basis so I can survive.
It isn't really a life, even though I'm physically alive. It's a barely scraped together existence on this physical plane.
There is no reason for me to continue existing but my weakness won't let me CTB.
