A Living Ghost

[Tomoko]

Anyone else out there not important to anyone? I don't mean a relationship or anything, but legitimately just an afterthought or 2nd choice to every single person they know. As a result, nobody ever wants to talk to me, initiates conversations, checks back to see how I'm doing, and my weekends are typically spent alone in front of this computer screen. I could disappear and nobody would notice. I'd might as well already be dead.

 

[CommitSudoku]

99% of the time I am. The rare 1% can make it worse when I'm put first and then I get too clingy or anxious. But at the same time I'm not sure I'm truly capable of reciprocating anything or making someone a "first choice" since I consume myself too much with work, depression/suicidal thoughts, and bad coping and thus my time can be quite limited.

It makes it easier to slip away though, not meaning that much to anyone. Which probably suits me better.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I prefer to be alone, I want to be forgotten about, I do see myself as being like a ghost, I live such an empty existence, it is like I have already died. I'm sorry that you are suffering. I wish you the best.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Anyone else out there not important to anyone? I don't mean a relationship or anything, but legitimately just an afterthought or 2nd choice to every single person they know. As a result, nobody ever wants to talk to me, initiates conversations, checks back to see how I'm doing, and my weekends are typically spent alone in front of this computer screen. I could disappear and nobody would notice. I'd might as well already be dead.

Yes, not even my housemates, supposed friends, have come to see how I am doing at my room. I no longer talk to them

 

[Life sucks]

I'm nothing and will return to nothingness, no matter what I do it's still the same even if I do everything I could do for said person, a weird sensation that I can't describe, as if I'm watching a movie and my parts always deleted, as if I never existed in the firs place, what a joke is this life and humans, game of human recognition isn't for me

 

[Nirrend]

Author (and other people), I'm sorry you feel that way and I understand you so much.

What brings us together here is finally understanding how cold the world is. I have the feeling that people are only interested in these facts (misfortunes) when they experience it themselves. Unfortunately, I also have the feeling that to live a misfortune is to become a receptacle for the misfortune of others, because through them, we do what we would have liked to be done to us when we were (or still are) in distress.

The author of the post, here, we understand you, we hear you and we support you as much as possible!

 

[Cosmic dust]

Same here, people know that I exist, people make small talk with me when I am close, but other than that, no one puts any real effort in talking to me, no one wants me in their social circles, never get invited to anything, family thinks that I am just weird and that is it, always ignored and rejected by the opposite sex, I expend most of my free time alone in front of screens, expend the weekends alone, vacations and holidays alone in my room.

I have 29 years and my life for the past 10 years has been like this 99% of the time. I am not important for anyone, I never was, I will most likely never be.

 

[Seiba]

Yes. Being previously homeschooled has contributed to me only leaving the house for grocery pick up (if that) and being at home all day. I don't really exist in the world, and exist in front of a screen just as you.