A cry for help.

[Anxieyote]

I don't know where to go, or who to talk to. Im desperate, and I've been living alone in my apartment for at least three years. I need somebody to speak to about anything. I always tell myself that living like this is doable, but it is painful on an unimaginable level. I need to escape from this mental prison somehow

 

[lacuna]

I don't know where to go, or who to talk to. Im desperate, and I've been living alone in my apartment for at least three years. I need somebody to speak to about anything. I always tell myself that living like this is doable, but it is painful on an unimaginable level. I need to escape from this mental prison somehow

I have schizoid personality disorder too. I think I know what you're going through. It gets better, after it gets worse. The pain will eventually force you to do something, either killing yourself or putting yourself out there. I suggest the latter.

Personality disorders are no joke, therapy helps. The thing that helped me the most was a outpatient program, or IOP. If you can get a couple of weeks off I really suggest you look into it. Just call your local mental health facility and ask about their outpatient programs.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

I don't know where to go, or who to talk to. Im desperate, and I've been living alone in my apartment for at least three years. I need somebody to speak to about anything. I always tell myself that living like this is doable, but it is painful on an unimaginable level. I need to escape from this mental prison somehow

In the Bible God tells us, it is not good for a man to be alone. I lived by myself for some years and I know exactly what u mean. Roommate situations are not always ideal unless the people u live with behave in a decent manner. I live with a Christian fellowship so I have some protection from getting too isolated but the downside is I miss my privacy and no sex can happen here. When we live alone and isolated, we tend to become self focused and that's why u feel like you're losing your mind. You need more connection with others. I found this fellowship through a lady I met in the grocery store. She didn't immediately invite me but after awhile of knowing her.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering so much. This life can be unbearable when you are in so much pain. I know that the feeling of desperation can be awful. I wish you the best.

 

[Rabhen]

I have learned to embrace my aloneness. Now, I no longer ache for company except for the rare occasion, and usually, when I get myself out, I quickly remember why I like being alone and head right back inside.

 

[soinvisible]

I second what Iacuna said. I don't have schizoid personality disorder but I think i have something going on. At any rate I so feel for you to be dealing with the last three years alone. I have had at least one supportive person and its still hard. I haven't had energy or time to look into therapy but I have heard that the right program or person can help, but that sometimes it can take a little looking. Best of all thoughts to you.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

I'm sorry you're going through this and I sadly have nothing to say except "I'm in the same boat".

The way I used to cope is to try and enjoy my own company -- going to movies alone, hiking alone, taking long walks at night alone etc etc. But of late, even those don't help.

 

[lacuna]

I don't know where to go, or who to talk to. Im desperate, and I've been living alone in my apartment for at least three years. I need somebody to speak to about anything. I always tell myself that living like this is doable, but it is painful on an unimaginable level. I need to escape from this mental prison somehow

I wish I could P.M. you but my account is too new for that I guess. Feel free to email me. [removed] if you want to talk. I really do know what you're going through.

 

[StarryStarry]

I live alone too (since 2009). I understand and would be more than happy to pm with you.

 

[whatevs]

Hop on the chat in a time frame that we agree on and we rock the scene. The last time I was in there they were exchanging furry porn. We need to put a stop to that!