Venting 3rd post but first formal introduction. Life hasn’t been kind to me

[quickandeasy]

Hi guys, how are you doing? I've been lurking on this site for close to a year now, however I just created an account a month ago. You can call me A haha. Love and life has not been kind to me. I suffer from crippling anxiety, to the point where I worry about people the second I say bye to them irl. It's been hard with my ex because she suffers from BPD and when combined with my anxiety, it didn't really lend a great helping hand to her. Despite everything, I showed up whenever she needed me even when she didn't explicitly call out for it. She left me because she thought i worried too much even when she was SHing herself and talking about how she wanted to die together. Ever since we broke up, my thoughts of suicidal ideation have changed from mere thoughts to intent and now I see no way out of this hell that we call life. Anyway that's enough about me. How are you guys?

 

[Liwujin]

My crippling anxiety is bad as well, i sometimes laugh at myself for worrying so much but I can't help it. I feel inadequate socially and for any other thing. I only have one successful relationship outside of my family which is my best friend and I think she only tolerates me at this point

 

[quickandeasy]

My crippling anxiety is bad as well, i sometimes laugh at myself for worrying so much but I can't help it. I feel inadequate socially and for any other thing. I only have one successful relationship outside of my family which is my best friend and I think she only tolerates me at this point

I feel you bud. I would call myself quite socially adept but I just don't see a point in having meaningful relationships because I get too attached to people and can't really live life without them after a point. I feel very inadequate when I'm alone and I'm tired of feeling this way. I could only imagine how much worse it is in your case. A million hugs to you

 

[RadiantNumber]

Hi guys, how are you doing? I've been lurking on this site for close to a year now, however I just created an account a month ago. You can call me AD haha. Love and life has not been kind to me. I suffer from crippling anxiety, to the point where I worry about people the second I say bye to them irl. It's been hard with my ex because she suffers from BPD and when combined with my anxiety, it didn't really lend a great helping hand to her. Despite everything, I showed up whenever she needed me even when she didn't explicitly call out for it. She left me because she thought i worried too much even when she was SHing herself and talking about how she wanted to die together. Ever since we broke up, my thoughts of suicidal ideation have changed from mere thoughts to intent and now I see no way out of this hell that we call life. Anyway that's enough about me. How are you guys?

Hi we hope you find your voice which was taken by society which shame us for "being weak"
Hugs

 

[quickandeasy]

Cheers. I have many "friends" who are mentally sound who don't understand my situation or what I'm going through and even if it's not their intention, it feels like I'm getting belittled for it. Doesn't really help that I can't get a lot of help as an immigrant as most services are locked behind government lines and I don't really have any access to it. Doesn't really help that I'm a broke student as well with no support from my family regarding anything. We are not weak people. In fact those of us willing to ctb have the strongest of wills because we decide our future. Millions of hugs to you

 

[RadiantNumber]

Cheers. I have many "friends" who are mentally sound who don't understand my situation or what I'm going through and even if it's not their intention, it feels like I'm getting belittled for it. Doesn't really help that I can't get a lot of help as an immigrant as most services are locked behind government lines and I don't really have any access to it. Doesn't really help that I'm a broke student as well with no support from my family regarding anything. We are not weak people. In fact those of us willing to ctb have the strongest of wills because we decide our future. Millions of hugs to you

Well said friend, well said