there's nothing i want more than to die right now and have all of this pain just finally come to an end. im extremely lucky to have caring parents but i've done nothing but hurt them over the past half-decade. they fight, they cry, they have sleepless nights because of me and i still dont fucking change no matter how hard i try. that's the only thing stopping me, im sure my older siblings will get over it, i havent spoken to them in countless months anyways and their lives seem great. im exhausted, im done. i want to live and i dont want to cause them any pain. i've now, after many years, come to the realization that i am, in fact, a delusional fucking failure.
...would a suicide note indicating how much i love them and how nothing was ever their fault + fentanyl OD really bring an end to this all. is this how my life concludes?
...would a suicide note indicating how much i love them and how nothing was ever their fault + fentanyl OD really bring an end to this all. is this how my life concludes?
