1st attempt failed

[readyfordeath]

My first attempt failed 2 days ago when I took a combination of 50 Paracetamol and Motilium. I ended up puking the whole lot within minutes, I rang my doctor to inform him I was committing suicide over what my ex-wife was doing to me in the corrupt legal and judicial system. The doctor only sent the police to me immediately.

I have written a long suicide note and and want my next attempt not to fail, I have made my peace with god and this world; I have enough evidence of an afterlife to prompt me to take my own life and knowing that this pain and suffering will soon end is a great consolation..

I have suffered far too much and life for me is not worth living, I have the sort of financial value that others would wish for but I am tormented in my life. I am viewed as an outcast of society because I refuse to conform to the 9-5 routine, I have opted out of society and its 73% taxation. I live in one of the most disgusting and frankly rotten places you could possibly imagine, I'd gladly swap my life for an Iraqi's as I wouldn't have to endure 6-8 months of continous grey skies and rain.

I need to buy either Nembutal or SN, I have the potential to fly abroad now to get it if I cannot safely import it. It should be fast acting as I intend to die in a public place as my last act of defiance against the system that has pushed me over the edge. I have also considered self-immolating but I won't suffer the pain of it.

 

[Dot]

Understand are suffering b if choose to ctb in public space, more chance of intervention...

 

[Mashedout]

I don't understand, you sound like you have plenty of money yet are mentioning the undesireable location you're currently in. You could live anywhere in the world I would assume.

 

[RN12]

where you live if i may ask? UK? always grey

 

[Apricity]

where you live if i may ask? UK? always grey

I'm assuming you're correct, considering OP's use of "Paracetamol" instead of "Acetaminophen", and the mention of incessant clouds/rain.
@readyfordeath you can always come to sunny California. It's not as great as they try to make it look in films, but it's not as cloudy.

 

[RN12]

I'm assuming you're correct, considering OP's use of "Paracetamol" instead of "Acetaminophen", and the mention of incessant clouds/rain.
@readyfordeath you can always come to sunny California. It's not as great as they try to make it look in films, but it's not as cloudy.

i was there couple years ago i really loved it. California. But it was holiday it's different then when you live there

 

[lostmyhope86]

man i'm sorry to hear all that. my wife she do many shit to me too with legal stuff and i risk to be in jail soon. i understand how u feel

 

[Apricity]

But it was holiday it's different then when you live there

Most definitely. Living somewhere for a while, you get to see the crap parts as well. I'd love to visit London, but would tire of the weather eventually. Love the accents though; idk if it's just me, but a British accent just sounds so classy. I even have my virtual assistant set to a UK English voice. Fucks me up though when I ask for the weather and get Celsius.

 

[Death is beautiful]

N and SN take a lot of time 4-24 hours and in some cases even more, it's better for you to do it in a remote place and not in front of people

 

[RN12]

Most definitely. Living somewhere for a while, you get to see the crap parts as well. I'd love to visit London, but would tire of the weather eventually. Love the accents though; idk if it's just me, but a British accent just sounds so classy. I even have my virtual assistant set to a UK English voice. Fucks me up though when I ask for the weather and get Celsius.

yes this accent is pretty classy but especially when they swears, like brittish football hooligans haha priceless

 

[plough22]

Had other been screwed by an ex and being put through a nightmare which started your down hill. Damn them people who go out to hurt another / destroy another. Hopefully we all find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds awful going through a failed attempt. Being alive really is horrible and it is understandable wanting to exit when you are constantly suffering. Whatever happens, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.