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BrugmansiaFreak

BrugmansiaFreak

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Jul 5, 2020
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Hey everybody.
Right, so I will ctb soon and my method is partial hanging suspension, is the most fast and painless method I can hand. As I practiced and tried so many times I know how to do in a way that work for me. My only obstacle is SI that prevents me to keep going.
Obviously downer drugs help, although I tried it drunk and high on chloroform and still failed, SI is a bitch. I read about people using benzos, it may help but for now I can't get benzos... But I have zolpidem. Zolpidem is very effective for me to put me into sleep, and quickly, so I was thinking about taking zolpidem before hang myself, but there's a problem. Zolpidem make me sleepwalk. I blackout and do things with ZERO memory next day, and apparently I'm like another person when I'm on this state.
My fear is that I can do something stupid while on zolpidem and get unwanted attention, fucking all my plan. Anyone have experience with this drug? What do you think about the whole plan?
 
Deleted member 17949

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May 9, 2020
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I'm not too sure about using something that makes you lose control. SI is hard to overcome I know, but you may end up messing up the method if you lack proper control.
 
BrugmansiaFreak

BrugmansiaFreak

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Jul 5, 2020
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I'm not too sure about using something that makes you lose control. SI is hard to overcome I know, but you may end up messing up the method if you lack proper control.

Yeah, is what I was thinking. I'm hoping there's a way to prevent the sleepwalk effect...
 
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Apr 26, 2020
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There is no way to reduce the somnambulant effects of ambien that wouldn't require stacking other drugs on top.
 
BrugmansiaFreak

BrugmansiaFreak

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Jul 5, 2020
89
There is no way to reduce the somnambulant effects of ambien that wouldn't require stacking other drugs on top.

I see :(
You have experience with zolpidem?
 
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Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,856
Everyone knows about the ambien walrus.
 
BrugmansiaFreak

BrugmansiaFreak

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Jul 5, 2020
89
I wasn't aware before start taking
 
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Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
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I see you have met him...
 
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BrugmansiaFreak

BrugmansiaFreak

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Jul 5, 2020
89
Did you took zolpidem anytime?
 
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Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
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I have a few times many years ago. Same issues.
 

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