Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚
Student
- Oct 8, 2024
- 189
Today was very similar to yesterday.
Except, I tried to make cookies for new years. And I failed big time
Why you may ask? Bc the butter had soap
in it 
Anyways, it left me so defeated I just left the cookies in the oven, I'll deal with them tomorrow…
If I make any cookies tomorrow they won't have any chocolate in it…I wasted so much food :,(
Anyways, just feel kinda down like usual, nothings going wrong, but I still feel down.
Like it's so strange, I used to love myself, just 6 months ago but the rest of this year had just gone down hill and perhaps I don't hate myself, but I don't see anything to love either.
To make matters worse I wanted to feel pretty and straightened my hair but it looks really bad…I hate my hair. Wtf.
I feel reluctant to talk to my counselor again because I feel the same, just not as bad I guess…I just feel like I'm going to be like this forever so why should I drag someone down with me?
Even the things that make me happy all I can think about is how I'll lose them too, and writing in my physical journal I've realized nothings changed in the last 5 years. Literally nothing.
Anyways, my next entry might be really short because I have labs on new years but I'll try to give more details about my day tomorrow hopefully.
Xxx
Except, I tried to make cookies for new years. And I failed big time
Why you may ask? Bc the butter had soap
in it Anyways, it left me so defeated I just left the cookies in the oven, I'll deal with them tomorrow…
If I make any cookies tomorrow they won't have any chocolate in it…I wasted so much food :,(
Anyways, just feel kinda down like usual, nothings going wrong, but I still feel down.
Like it's so strange, I used to love myself, just 6 months ago but the rest of this year had just gone down hill and perhaps I don't hate myself, but I don't see anything to love either.
To make matters worse I wanted to feel pretty and straightened my hair but it looks really bad…I hate my hair. Wtf.
I feel reluctant to talk to my counselor again because I feel the same, just not as bad I guess…I just feel like I'm going to be like this forever so why should I drag someone down with me?
Even the things that make me happy all I can think about is how I'll lose them too, and writing in my physical journal I've realized nothings changed in the last 5 years. Literally nothing.
Anyways, my next entry might be really short because I have labs on new years but I'll try to give more details about my day tomorrow hopefully.
Xxx
