Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚
Student
- Oct 8, 2024
- 189
A lots been on my mind today honestly.
I think I'm going to go more in depth with my counselor tomorrow because we usually just do school work together and she doesn't really know how I've been feeling lately tbh lol
Like everyday for this month all I've thought about is getting away from this house and moving in with my friend, how frustrated I am about the past…
Today my mom brought up inviting people to my sisters baby shower and we have an old friend that's in town she's thinking of inviting…
I think it will be very awkward because I stopped talking to her without notice months ago, not because she did anything wrong but the fact that if I don't talk or see anyone for MONTHS I really don't see a reason to keep contact, because I already feel abandoned.
And I know I know, not everyone can see their friends everyday, or week but at least once a month…that would be nice.
But it just feels weird when we haven't seen each other in months and I almost expect them to never show up again to than make a sudden appearance and than go into the shadows.
Of course I'd like a friend or two, but honestly the main thing that makes me want to have friends irl is to just not appear weird, which is stupid in itself.
I truly don't know what to expect for my social life..
Xxx
Still trying.
I think I'm going to go more in depth with my counselor tomorrow because we usually just do school work together and she doesn't really know how I've been feeling lately tbh lol
Like everyday for this month all I've thought about is getting away from this house and moving in with my friend, how frustrated I am about the past…
Today my mom brought up inviting people to my sisters baby shower and we have an old friend that's in town she's thinking of inviting…
I think it will be very awkward because I stopped talking to her without notice months ago, not because she did anything wrong but the fact that if I don't talk or see anyone for MONTHS I really don't see a reason to keep contact, because I already feel abandoned.
And I know I know, not everyone can see their friends everyday, or week but at least once a month…that would be nice.
But it just feels weird when we haven't seen each other in months and I almost expect them to never show up again to than make a sudden appearance and than go into the shadows.
Of course I'd like a friend or two, but honestly the main thing that makes me want to have friends irl is to just not appear weird, which is stupid in itself.
I truly don't know what to expect for my social life..
Xxx
Still trying.
