Zia’s diary,entry 15

[Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚]

Posting quicckckckckckkckcj


Felt very said, wanted to die but thinking about the few happy moments I do have makes me wanna stay…also literally getting McDonald's in the middle of the night with bf

 

[Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚]

Update:

Really rushed my entry because it was a minute away from midnight!! And it would've ruined my streak.

Anyways, my sisters had come home yesterday so that was nice.


And yeah, when I was FaceTiming my bf he heard my stomach growling MULTIPLE times and decided to get me McDonald's

I know it's simple but this is the most special I've felt in a while that I blushed.

It really was unexpected, especially because I WAS EXPECTING to have the same day over and over until we go on one of our official dates, whichll be on the 11th.

Man…I've felt increasingly shit over the past 4 days too and it's crazy how fast he made me feel better.

Weird, but I'm tired of constantly being pulled back to the real world

I don't want to get any older, I feel like I'll probably be disappointed with how my life turns out but whatever I guess these small moments are worth it…idk man I'm just frustrated…today I'll be facing cherry after I made her cry and I just want to post one it forever but it'll just make things worse…I don't have any words of comfort that I'll ever get better yet so I'm just going to try to pretend that conversation never happened…

I just want to look in his eyes or sleep, those are the only moments I feel real, because I do t even think I'm just there.

We had left off or session with "finding a reason to stay" thing, before I felt a little better I honestly felt like saying nothing, I literally have no ambition to REALLY want anything anymore…but now it's changed, all I want is to look into his eyes and have our happy moments together..

Anyways, my comics almost finished and I finished the first chapter of my story, guess I'm a little proud of that