I just want to die as peacefully as possible and never suffer in this existence ever again as all I see as desirable is permanently ceasing to exist, only non-existence can personally bring me peace from this cruel, futile existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake that just caused so much suffering all for the sake of it, to cease existing is all I see as desirable, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. If it's up to me I'd choose to completely erase my existence as I find it so dreadful how this existence was even imposed at all, I never should have been forced into this horrific reality where existing beings suffer endlessly until death takes away all for them anyway, I personally just hope for non-existence, I just want to never exist ever again, I find existing deeply undesirable in every way and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all.