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telekon

telekon

Mage
Feb 5, 2025
507
"Tomorrow is shining like a razor blade
And anything's possible if you feel the same" – Conor Oberst
 
HFK40000

HFK40000

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
46
'm dying"
"Is it blissful?"
"It's like a dream" "I want to dream"
"I'm dying" "Is it blissful?"
"It's like a dream" "I want to dream" "I want to dream"
"I want to dream"
"I want to dream"
With you
Dream House by Deafheaven
 
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LetMeOut67

LetMeOut67

Wizard
May 7, 2025
631


Would you look at me now? (Would you look at me now?)
Can you tell I'm a man? (Can you tell I'm a man?)
With the scars on my wrists to prove I'll try again (With these scars on my wrists to prove I'll die again)
Try to die again
Try to live through this night
Try to die again
 
MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP
Feb 11, 2023
73
"I lay dying and I'm pouring crimson regret" Tourniquet by Evanescence
 
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booplesnoot34

booplesnoot34

I’ll miss the winter, a world of fragile things
Feb 8, 2023
80
"Goodbye, I'm Sorry" by Jamestown Story (particularly the version without the stupid suicide hotline PSA)

Time has run out, for me.
Everything's distant and I don't know what to believe.
It's so hard, lost in the world confusion.
And I need to leave, for a while.
Life is so meaningless, there is nothing worth a smile.
So goodbye, I'll miss you.

And I'm sorry, but this is my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.

It's been the years, of abuse.
Neglected to treat the disorder,
That controls my youth, for so long.
I'm in a fleshy tomb, buried up above the ground.
It's no use, why should I hold on?
It's been five years, don't need one more.
So goodbye, life's abuse.

And I'm sorry, but this is my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.
 
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letsnotmakeittoo22

letsnotmakeittoo22

I Have No Long Term Plans For This Body
Nov 24, 2024
11
Might not be the right forum to post this in but I'm curious. Do you guys have any favorite lyrics from songs, whether it be a theme of sadness, suicide, death? Or however you'd like to interpret your song. I will start first :)

Goodbye, Michelle, my precious one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
Every time that I was down
You would always come around
Get my feet back on the ground
Goodbye, Michelle, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
Wish that we could both be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the stars we could reach were just starfish on the beach
Many of mine are from the ironically named band " teen suicide " ( link is their band wiki ), who got me through/ comforted me during many rough years. Including until this day. ( my profile picture is from one of their albums, as is my bio )

So I would like to share a few examples of my most important/meaningful lyrics from the band ' teen suicide '
~

" The world is ending in my dreams
Every week for the last few years
When it really ends
they'll fill my body with flames

You and I will be a household name "

from the song: we found two dead swans and filled their bodies with flowers.
* Note: if you happen to listen to any song on this I highly recommend this song, as it fills me with the most emotion/ feeling.

~

- " One more week
And things are at an end
I am not myself
I haven't been in months
"

from the song: if I cleaned everything

~


" I have no long-term plans for this body
I want to be part of you while I still can
My mouth filled up with blood

Let me be part of you while I still can "

- from the song: XXXXXXX

~

" And when I go,
I hope you'll give me back to the sky
And keep me out of your dreams

I have no place there "

- from the song: give me back to the sky


~

" Everything I like
is going to hell
And everyone like
is living in hell
I've got no use for friends
only connections
Give me what I want and leave me alone
in five years from now
I'll be living in hell
In ten years from now
I might as well be dead
When I wake up at night
I'm floating above the sheets on my bed
I've got no use for time
l've got enough
Give me what I want and leave me alone "


- from the song: everything is going to hell

~


" This is not a song about sleep or death
It's about something much
smaller and paler than that
I'm not going to show it to my friends
Cause when I came home
I'd lost thirty-something pounds
I didn't leave my bed
I threw up in a bathroom in Baltimore
Before dancing with a girl

I'll probably never talk to again
We won't be friends
And I won't be nice to anyone
Because I don't see why I should
I don't see the point
I won't get clean For the rest of my life

I won't be nice "

- from the song: doing all the things i used to do with people, part 2
 
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passthisnote

passthisnote

chronically online
May 6, 2026
49
Don't move your hands from your eyes
Don't hold me from my sacrifice
Don't let me waste up your time
I'll end it myself on Facebook Live
So many questions, so many angles
You were an angel to the wolf in disguise
Don't move your hands from your eyes (Don't, from your eyes)
Don't let me waste up your time (Don't let me waste up your time)

jaydes - pass this note

i think the song was inspired by Ronnie McNutt if i'm not mistaken and it's also where i got my username from
 
letsnotmakeittoo22

letsnotmakeittoo22

I Have No Long Term Plans For This Body
Nov 24, 2024
11
Another artist/ song I love, Is Elliott Smith's incredibly fragile, and beautiful song
" Between the Bars ".
It has always touched my heart and spoke personally to me.


~
Drink up baby, stay up all night
With the things you could do
You won't but you might
The potential you'll be that you'll never see

The promises you'll only make
Drink up with me now
And forget all about the pressure of days
Do what I say and I'll make you okay
And drive them away
The images stuck in your head
People you've been before
That you don't want around anymore
That push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still
Drink up baby, look at the stars
I'll kiss you again, between the bars
Where I'm seeing you there with your hands in the air
Waiting to finally be caught
Drink up one more time, and I'll make you mine
Keep you apart, deep in my heart
Separate from the rest, where I like you the best
And keep the things you forgot

People you've been before
That you don't want around anymore
That push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still


~
~ Elliott Smith, between the bars lyrics


It relates in so many aspects depending on your perspective while listening to it. Despite it pertaining to alcoholism, between the bars can be extrapolated in many different perspectives; suicide, depression, trauma, etc. and truly has been with me through many, restless, crying filled nights.


~

Morbid and sad fact: Elliott Smith himself passed away in 2003, the circumstances of his death are debated to either be a suicide, or caused by his girlfriend ( which she had denied ), the coroner listed the official cause of death as undetermined. His tragic death is still heavily debated, with fans and biographers divided between the theory of suicide and the possibility of homicide.

If he did himself CTB, I hope he found peace.

If it was the other situation, I hope the perpetrator gets " caught / revealed / confesses etc ), and faces legal consequences, and that Elliott is able to eventually get the justice he deserves ( if homicide was the cause ) even if it can only be given post-mortem
 
YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
1,419
I made her a necklace
Of telephone cord
Hanging from the ceiling
She opened the door
Choking on my vomit
Had blood in my eyes
Smiled at my baby
Said, "I won't survive"

She screamed out for help
But nobody came
So she picked up my gun
And put it to her brain
She begged, she pleaded, she screamed
Said, "God give me help"
Then she decided to do it herself