Discussion You realize you’re never going to have a good day again

[Fadeawaaaay]

When's the last time you were grateful to be alive?

 

[Fktw0rld]

Probably 1999

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

Really, 1985/1986. Then a few specific scattered days and moments in the very early 90s

 

[[HNO]]

pulling myself out of this hellhole by elaborated suicide method is only purpose by which i've motivation to do actions like self-improvement and keeping myself healthy to some degree at least functional enough to do chores so if i try hard maybe i get a happy day this month
but i never asked for this clownery or wanted to end up like that once i said to mother that she's whore and should have done abortion instead to putting efforts to raise me

 

[blue_muse]

When I finished compulsory schooling. As naive as it sounds, the world looked like a playground I felt ready to explore.

 

[Hope:-)]

5 1/2 years ago.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never. I've never wanted to be here at all. Why would I be grateful for having been brought into such a cruel world filled with suffering against my wishes. There was never any need for me to even exist in the first place, I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. Life is just unnecessary misery and problems all for the sake of it.

 

[Julgran]

When's the last time you were grateful to be alive?

When I was 7 years old, before my family's first move, and I still had all my old friends and life felt like an adventure - that was 28 years ago.

 

[akana]

when people didnt run my life

 

[hamvil]

May 2020, after that all went wrong.

 

[thebunny]

last year. i was living the dream for an entire year and then poof. gone like the wind.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

October 2021

 

[Enoughnow]

I dunno but my need to die right now is so strong I need to die tonight but my attempts keep failing

 

[Hollowman]

A loooooong time ago

 

[emgrl]

A few months ago :(

 

[LeavingEarly]

A loooooong time ago

When?

 

[indigomoon]

1991. Before my dad died.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Sometime earlier last year

 

[Hollowillow]

Never. I wouldn't go back except to murder myself, it'd be easier to overcome SI than suicide.

I dunno but my need to die right now is so strong I need to die tonight but my attempts keep failing

How, why? I'm so scared to fail.