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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
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Have you ever had an amazing dream of a more idyllic life and then woke up to your awakened reality? I dreamt I lived in a beautiful coastal town with lots of beautiful people and no mental illness, then I woke up to my horrible neighbours drunk and screaming at each other. lol Just shoot me now ffs :))
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
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Bro this kinda post belongs to the offtopic not the suicide section
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I just have nightmares. There is no peace even when I am asleep. There is no such thing as an ideal life for me. Nothing would make me want to live. I hate waking up, it is so depressing. All I want is to not exist.
I used to have really noisy neighbours, and it was awful. People can ruin your life.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,245
Bro this kinda post belongs to the offtopic not the suicide section
It isn't off topic though. My dreams are better than my reality and they remind me of why I need to be gone. It is completely on topic. I live for good dreams but then I need to wake up
I just have nightmares. There is no peace even when I am asleep. There is no such thing as an ideal life for me. Nothing would make me want to live. I hate waking up, it is so depressing. All I want is to not exist.
I used to have really noisy neighbours, and it was awful. People can ruin your life.
Yeah, I hear you. I used to get frequent nightmares, but not so much anymore. I think it is because my awakened state is a living nightmare and the dreams balance that out somehow.
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

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Apr 2, 2019
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I mostly have anxiety dreams and nightmares, but sometimes I'll get lucky and have the most wonderful, beautiful dreams where I'm so happy and life feels good and I'm healthy...and then I wake up. I really appreciate those infrequent glimpses into what a happy, healthy, good life might feel/be like but it's a double-edged sword kind of thing because, like you OP, I then wake up to my hellish real life and the glaring contrast is soulcrushing and makes me even more resolved to end this mess - soon.
 
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