You either die happy or live long enough to become suicidal.

[Daystavro]

If you think about this is true for everyone.
And it's because happiness/success/ health/ relationship are always temporary.
Take the healthiest, richest, helthiest, best looking, popular person.
With time he will become fray and old and loose popularity.
And eventually everyone becomes disabled if they are old enough.

I look at myself.
When I was a kid I was happy.
I loved life.
But it was temporary, like everything.
And now my life sucks and I want to ctb

 

[AlePizarnik]

I was never happy. There were some neutral moments.

 

[Fucking loving it]

I've had suicidal ideation from a very young age. ... Everyone is different and has had different upbringing. I feel I was born this way. There is a lot of mental illnesses in my family, although it could be trauma from a young age too.

 

[Roph]

I've lived beyond the point of being suicidal.

 

[TAW122]

If you think about this is true for everyone.
And it's because happiness/success/ health/ relationship are always temporary.
Take the healthiest, richest, helthiest, best looking, popular person.
With time he will become fray and old and loose popularity.
And eventually everyone becomes disabled if they are old enough.

I look at myself.
When I was a kid I was happy.
I loved life.
But it was temporary, like everything.
And now my life sucks and I want to ctb

Yes, this is actual reality, and I would rather die while I am able to choose when, how, and on my own terms, than to become crippled, disabled, and just wait for death to take me. I've seen how the elderly suffer until their natural end and it's torturous though and through. If some people in the world would rather live until natural causes take them then that's their prerogative, but for us, we should be able to choose when, how, and die on our terms without being locked up, treated like a criminal/animal/incompetent person, and forced to live a life that we didn't choose to.

 

[Trashcan]

Agreed. A lot of people from my family have gotten Alzheimer's simply due to how long they are living. I don't want to live long enough to get dementia.

 

[Daystavro]

Agreed. A lot of people from my family have gotten Alzheimer's simply due to how long they are living. I don't want to live long enough to get dementia.

Yeah me too.
One of my grandfathers ( the one I was closer to) had dementia for several years before he died and he becane senile and bedridden.
It was horrible seeing him like that.

 

[Trashcan]

Yeah me too.
One of my grandfathers ( the one I was closer to) had dementia for several years before he died and he becane senile and bedridden.
It was horrible seeing him like that.

It is horrible watching someone go through something like that, especially someone you love.