You are not a failure

[NoPointToContinue]

Does not matter whether you will ctb or not. You are not a failure. Maybe we lost this "game" or don't know how to play it. So what? Fuck the game. Really fuck it. Why did we put so much importance on it?

Little bit understanding, little bit love to yourself, friend. You tried to be happy just like everyone else, you searched for peace and joy. And they became elusive, always on the "other side", unreachable. But none of this is your fault, not single bit of it. I am not trying to spread stupid, bullshit positivity, all I want for us to be more understanding towards ourselves. Let's not kick ourselves for anything, even if we ctb in the end.
Let's not wait for other people to understand or validate us. Is that what we want really? Or the acceptance we are really looking for is our own goddamn acceptance towards ourselves?

Let's dance to ourselves, our awkwardness, inability to understand life, to become successful, to be "normal", let's dance to our loneliness, being apart from life, to darkness embraced us tighter than our own mother, let's dance to life and death. Let's dance for us being forgotten, ignored, forsaken by God. Let's dance for all our brothers and sisters suffering in any form on the face of this planet. I love you all. You are my family.
I hope all of you will find the life you really want. And if any of us decides to end it, let's celebrate ourselves while doing it.

 

[whywere]

WOW!! YOU are so, so special!!! I LOVE your post. YES,YES, we are ALL a global family here!!! I have read so many posts sine I have been on here and I have to say that yours is so uplifting to me. I can NEVER EVER thank you enough as you are truly a global family member. I was having a crappy day till I read your post and it made me cry and also feel so wonderful!!!!!! YOU ARE GREAT!!! Walter

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Yes, we can choose what to believe. I am trying to convince myself of things that might make everything hurt less, but I've never been a persuasive guy.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't see myself as a failure, rather this life has failed me. This life is cruel and unfair and I will ctb someday but in a way I have accepted those facts. It is just the way it is and there is nothing really I could have done.

 

[deflationary]

Indeed. I want to kill myself because I'm too good for the world and not the other way round haha

Yes, I can sometimes get caught up in comparing myself to more successful people but the truth is that their lives don't seem appealing to me either if I really think about them beyond just the surface level. Career, family, education, social standing, all of it is just a bunch of nonsense that I've never fully wanted.

The world is such an ugly place that no one should want to fit in and succeed playing by its rules. I'd rather hide away from it and observe it from the sidelines with a few close friends and loved ones than be the CEO of some planet-raping company or whatever. I wouldn't even want to be someone trying to fight against that CEO, since that too is participating in the world to an uncomfortable degree. Just fuck the whole game.

 

[Bullit]

Me,I am a failure. No amount of happy talk is going to convince me I am worth a shit. It sucks. But the proof of the pudding is in the tasting,and this pudding is quite bitter!!

 

[nopointofliving]

Indeed. I want to kill myself because I'm too good for the world and not the other way round haha

Yes, I can sometimes get caught up in comparing myself to more successful people but the truth is that their lives don't seem appealing to me either if I really think about them beyond just the surface level. Career, family, education, social standing, all of it is just a bunch of nonsense that I've never fully wanted.

The world is such an ugly place that no one should want to fit in and succeed playing by its rules. I'd rather hide away from it and observe it from the sidelines with a few close friends and loved ones than be the CEO of some planet-raping company or whatever. I wouldn't even want to be someone trying to fight against that CEO, since that too is participating in the world to an uncomfortable degree. Just fuck the whole game.

I can relate to much of what you said here. hugs

 

[All Things Must Pass]

Never said I am. Our body fails us daily, though.

 

[souljah222]

youre wholesome