
spero_meliora
In hope for better things.
- Jan 13, 2025
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I'm so sorry you're having such scary results - how are you now? Have you had a clear EKG?
Sending you hugs.
Sending you hugs.

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Symptom/Sign | Meaning | |
---|---|---|
T-wave changes | Repolarization abnormality | Delayed potassium channel recovery |
Incomplete right bundle branch block (RBBB) | Delayed conduction in right ventricle | |
Right axis deviation | Electrical vector altered | |
QRS prolongation: 150 ms → 136 → 128… | Slowed ventricular conduction | |
"Intravenous conduction block" | Generalized conduction delay |
I might've said this before but it sounds like you've set up a behavioral pattern. Obvs a very unsafe one but I believe it can be pattern broken with new routines if that's what you want to do.I already feel tempted to do this again. What's wrong with me
If you have a bit of hope, I highly encourage you to run with it. Nothing ventured, nothing gained right?But I hope I won't do it until october/november. Because there is a bit of hope in my life right now.
In some of the more obscure writings on yew in regards to herbalism and witchcraft, some have proposed that a salve may have been made to apply to the skin and bring one to a near death state for shamanic journeying.It also seems the effects on consciousness and effects similar to being put under
Yeah It has become a pattern for better or worse. Some psychologists and doctors have mentioned it seems to be a pattern or that I can't control myself around yew. Or that Im obsessed with it...Thanks for documenting your journey.
Going by the pubmeds I've read, some of the people that died the quickest took somewhere between 100-200 grams though there were other's that seemingly took a much smaller amount.
I might've said this before but it sounds like you've set up a behavioral pattern. Obvs a very unsafe one but I believe it can be pattern broken with new routines if that's what you want to do.
If you have a bit of hope, I highly encourage you to run with it. Nothing ventured, nothing gained right?
In some of the more obscure writings on yew in regards to herbalism and witchcraft, some have proposed that a salve may have been made to apply to the skin and bring one to a near death state for shamanic journeying.
Anyways, I've searched my own conscience and motives in participating in this thread. You've walked the razor's edge for quite awhile now, I would never want to egg you on or be a mere spectator. I just find your path super interesting which has stirred my own research and appreciation for this method. I now easily spot yew's on my daily rounds and they serve as a gentle reminder that I'm not alone and mother nature has provided me a "cure" should life itself become my ultimate ailment.
I hope you do recover even if it's just a postponement where you can find some solace in the world. Don't be a stranger! I'm sure those of us that have been following you would love to hear updates on how you're doing.
I mean real shamanic initiation is usually done in a master/apprentice type of relationship within a tribal culture.Oh I am so into shamanic jouneying. Never done it but now I really want to try what you're suggesting. How is it done?
If you really wanted to pivot your interest and experiences with yew toward a spiritual direction, I'd say make peace with the plant spirit of the Yew. Thank the yew for being there to help you and also ask it to give you a much needed break to integrate what you've already been through and put it out of your mind a little while.Im still having a very hard time not doing it again. But I really have to not to. If I do it again I have to do it again because they have demanded I not do it again to get help with some things