Writing detailed suicide letters then bottling it?

[Somage]

Anyone else written out loads of goodbye/suicide letters ( who you want to get your stuff etc) then not followed through and had to bin the paperwork after bottling it and failing to overcome survival instinct? I am gonna run out of paper I think before I get the courage to hit the end button! Wondered if i am not alone in this?

 

[solanastan16]

I've done it a thousand times. But i now I just type it down on a google doc and keep it there until I'm extremely sure I can override SI

 

[Zinz]

I often have written goodbye notes but I delete them after rereading because I feel they express too much anger towards certain people and I regret taking it out on them even if they haven't read it.

 

[onthelastday]

I lost count of how many notes I wrote, and every time I read it again I delete it because that is no longer the last feeling I want to leave, the last I just put the reasons for dying and some personal wishes, although I would like to leave something explaining who I was, because no one even came close to meeting me

 

[yive]

Anyone else written out loads of goodbye/suicide letters ( who you want to get your stuff etc) then not followed through and had to bin the paperwork after bottling it and failing to overcome survival instinct? I am gonna run out of paper I think before I get the courage to hit the end button! Wondered if i am not alone in this?

you're not alone. i like to write suicide notes

 

[FuneralCry]

I started to write a note one time, but I think at that time I was feeling desperate and I think to convey your feelings properly, you have to be in a certain mindset where you can think rationally. I feel like doing a note kind of finalises your decision to ctb and then the SI kicks in as suicide is against what we are programmed to do. I think the more we try to plan sometimes this can stop us doing the act.

 

[Choicer]

I envy those that can write suicide notes. For me I either end up feeling bitter or gushing about love. I decided notes are not for me purely because my actions will have spoken volumes. I know it leaves others with questions but would they really want to know what's in my mind prior to ctb.?