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Kennish

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Aug 17, 2021
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Do they ever get "good" enough?

I have written 2, but I'm thinking about writing them again, because my handwriting is not as nice as it should be. And I'm thinking about if I'm writing the right stuff in them.

Do anybody else have these thoughts when writing their notes?
 
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Kennish

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Come on you guys, don't ignore my thread 😢🤗
 
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kurisutinabestgirl

Kurisu is best girl
Oct 14, 2021
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Do they ever get "good" enough?

I have written 2, but I'm thinking about writing them again, because my handwriting is not as nice as it should be. And I'm thinking about if I'm writing the right stuff in them.

Do anybody else have these thoughts when writing their notes?
I haven't written any notes recently, but yeah, I can relate to this.
I mean, it's your final words, of course you constantly try to change it up since it's the most important note you will ever write. I mean, in case it's that kind, if it's not important then you wouldn't overthink it.

I think it's good to improve it and polish it to the best it can be, but it's not worth it being too taken up by it, once you are dead it doesn't matter anyways.
 
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down for the count

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Jun 3, 2021
585
I suppose they could always get better. I think the important thing is conveyping the message of why your CTBing.
 
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Kennish

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Aug 17, 2021
379
I suppose they could always get better. I think the important thing is conveyping the message of why your CTBing.
The ones around me already know why, but good point
I haven't written any notes recently, but yeah, I can relate to this.
I mean, it's your final words, of course you constantly try to change it up since it's the most important note you will ever write. I mean, in case it's that kind, if it's not important then you wouldn't overthink it.

I think it's good to improve it and polish it to the best it can be, but it's not worth it being too taken up by it, once you are dead it doesn't matter anyways.
Yeah I kinda think its important to leave some sort of notice on why and say that it isn't their fault, and I love them you know?
 
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Pluto

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Dec 27, 2020
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When writing something like that, it can be good to start with a list of important points, then expand it into something presentable.
 
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Kennish

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Aug 17, 2021
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When writing something like that, it can be good to start with a list of important points, then expand it into something presentable.
I don't quite understand what you mean?
 
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Pluto

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Dec 27, 2020
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I don't quite understand what you mean?
I mean have a list of things that you want to say in the note before you start trying to write it. Otherwise you might forget something important. In my case it's mainly about trying to ensure no one blames themselves.
 
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Kennish

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Aug 17, 2021
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I mean have a list of things that you want to say in the note before you start trying to write it. Otherwise you might forget something important. In my case it's mainly about trying to ensure no one blames themselves.
I have that in mind already. That it's not their fault. I wrote that. I don't know if I wanna make a bullet list. If I just do it, then it comes from the heart I think
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I think I will just keep my note simple and make sure it covers the main points that I want to say, like 'there is nothing you could have done' and 'now I am at peace'. My note will act as closure and will mean those left behind will not be left with unanswered questions. I think that is good enough.
 
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Lostandlooking

In limbo
Jul 23, 2020
489
I keep adding to mine. I'm not content with the result so far. But at the same time I know it doesn't really matter if it's not perfect. I hope people will understand, I tried to write about the reasons. But I know even though I wrote it down people still might not understand. Or misinterpret things. But then again, that won't matter much to me when I'm gone. I did what I could.
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
I still have to write mine. Mainly one to my husband. He will be having a hard time when I'm gone and I want to ask for his forgiveness in it.
 
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VoidDesirer22

A dream inside a locked room
Sep 6, 2021
673
I think I will just keep my note simple and make sure it covers the main points that I want to say, like 'there is nothing you could have done' and 'now I am at peace'. My note will act as closure and will mean those left behind will not be left with unanswered questions. I think that is good enough.
A dark voice in me tells me that there is something they could have done. But then again, it's not being totally genuine. It's just about escaping the fuck out of this nightmare and letting those who are left behind some shot at recovery lol
 
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EliphasBlackwood

Member
Nov 27, 2021
28
I'm thinking a voice message or maybe even a video instead of a letter. I'm writing a short script instead of improvising.
 
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EliphasBlackwood

Member
Nov 27, 2021
28
and where ull store that video?
On my phone. I'm thinking I will send it as video message to my loved ones and schedule it for hours after I'm gone. Just have to make sure my phone is fully charged when I do it.
 
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Depressed_Kettle

Experienced
Apr 25, 2021
252
When I first wrote my note many months ago I was very angry. Later I read it and realized I was being unnecessarily and unfairly aggressive so I changed it to be more informative rather than blaming.

Sure I am upset over some of the things that have happened to me but they are in the past and no one can do anything about it now so I might as well make my peace with it before I go. I want my CTB note to be a goodbye letter while still trying to give my reasons as politely as I can. I still have a ways to go to achieve a better letter and I definitely have to update a few things.

I want my note to bring change even as unlikely as that may be. At the same time I want my family and friends to understand that I'm just a mess and there was nothing they could do to help me.
 
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sanguineblade

Member
Jul 3, 2021
86
On my phone. I'm thinking I will send it as video message to my loved ones and schedule it for hours after I'm gone. Just have to make sure my phone is fully charged when I do it.
I really have doubts about this method, be careful about the service u gonna use. There's a chance it's gonna be monitored
 
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