Insomniac
𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
- May 21, 2021
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you wake up everyday and have to mentally make a list of things to do to distract yourself from stabbing yourself or slicing your throat.
the urge is so out of control at this point you're like a ticking time bomb.
you're doing everything right, you reach out to friends, you go out sometimes, you study, you don't procrastinate.
you do your best.
but none of that seems to matter? you just want to blow your brain out every single minute and the harder you try the worst everything gets and the worst you feel.
then you get it. It's your destiny. Its your fate. this is what all the hard work helps you understand is that no matter what you do you're doomed not because you're doing anything wrong but simply because you're you.
the urge is so out of control at this point you're like a ticking time bomb.
you're doing everything right, you reach out to friends, you go out sometimes, you study, you don't procrastinate.
you do your best.
but none of that seems to matter? you just want to blow your brain out every single minute and the harder you try the worst everything gets and the worst you feel.
then you get it. It's your destiny. Its your fate. this is what all the hard work helps you understand is that no matter what you do you're doomed not because you're doing anything wrong but simply because you're you.
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