Would you wanna do anything before you ctb?

[Charaltontin]

I've had many set backs trying to ctb. I've failed, been caught, or just even the lack of motivation keeps me from doing it, not having it in me to even get up and just do it. I've heard different methods all supposedly painless and quick but that's honestly just a fantasy. I gotta pick one though even if it's the critic acid and baking soda method, sn, partial hanging, shoot I'd use a gun if i could get my hands on one but sadly can't. I'm just tired of hurting feeling empty, and honestly so alone. As much as I wanna die i haven't gave up I'm always accepting help trying to stay strong but i only have so much in me. I just say fuck it imma die either way so imma do what i want till then so that's why I'm writing this. Is there anything you wanna do before you cbt? I mean if your gonna do it do something. Like me i wanna explore the world on foot ive always loved walking and i wanna walk and walk and maybe hitch hike somewhere new even if i die in the process. Maybe that's my escape but idk maybe once i have the energy I'll do it but right now I'm so tired but i can't rest. I'm so sleepy but can't sleep.

 

[ikadasui]

Isn't much I care about at this point, but I'd like to sleep with a woman. I'm incredibly ugly, and have a fucked up mouth so I don't think I'd even be comfortable going through with the act if it even presented itself. Otherwise I'm not sure what I'm waiting for. I have a gun and all I need now is proper ammo which is cheap and easy to acquire

 

[summers]

I would like to win the lottery so I can leave the money to a few people I care about. Other than that, I've done just about everything I could want to do in this life.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is nothing that I want to do. I think if there was a list of things that I enjoyed and could actually physically do, then maybe I would not want to die so much. I do not belong in this world and there is nothing here for me. I just want to finally be free of all suffering.

 

[needed_]

I will try to spend one-on-one time for the last time with the few people who are really close to me to say goodbye without saying goodbye. some here posted they want to give those people a last memory to remember and that's exactly what I want to do

 

[Crazy4u]

Nothing. I'm done with life. I'm ready to go

 

[lofticries]

Sex.

 

[4eyebiped]

There are many things I would love to do before I die. The issue often is having the resources to do them. I would love to have certain experiences, see certain things and even learn certain things, to give that little justification for suffering so long.

Sex.

Wish granted!

 

[Cheza_mus]

I want to HV sex before I ctb