Would you try CTB if you were rich ?

[derekWest]

i'm very lucky to no have big money problem (but i'm not rich in a way that i cannot stop work for the rest of my life), but i stay suicidal.

 

[Reflection]

Money alone wouldn't make me less suicidal

 

[995.]

No, I wouldn't. Most of my current issues have been caused by being (& brought up) in poverty, having financial freedom would likely eliminate all of my worries and I'd be able to focus on what I enjoy :(

 

[derekWest]

Money alone wouldn't make me less suicidal

but you answer "no" ?

 

[meso]

i think i will live until a non-voluntary death (because my main problems are material) but will remain suicidal (because i also have trauma / disgust about life / about myself), i'll think of death a lot, and maybe ctb by impulse (but chances will be very low)

 

[Reflection]

but you answer "no" ?

My bad, just changed it, I didn't pay attention earlier.

 

[Lyn]

Well, my attitude towards life is far from being conditioned only by the presence/absence of money. It won't solve my mental problems and it won't change what I am. Not to mention I'm sick of the way the world is organized fundamentally.

So would I remain suicidal? Yes.

Would I want to at least postpone ideas of catching the bus? Also yes.

 

[derekWest]

Well, my attitude towards life is far from being conditioned only by the presence/absence of money. It won't solve my mental problems and it won't change what I am. Not to mention I'm sick of the way the world is organized fundamentally.

So would I remain suicidal? Yes.

Would I want to at least postpone ideas of catching the bus? Also yes.

I would postponed ctb just to spend money. then i will ctb despite all i think

and yes : fuck capitalism (that what you imply?) !

 

[Rymrgand]

That's a lot of money. I have some problems that can't be directly solved with money (lack of love, for example), but it's still worth to try. With money, I can buy good healthy food, a good house with someone to clean it and good therapy, so I would have a way more comfortable life. As a consequence, I would have less anxiety, I could focus more into improving myself and I would be generally more healthy, both physically and mentally. That doesn't mean I would find close friends or a partner, but it would be a good start. I would have more money to start new hobbies and pay to go out, and even if money doesn't make you popular, people prefer to meet someone who is not in a permanent panic attack.

Like they said, even if money does not bring you happiness, at least it helps you to be miserable in comfort.

In any case, I can ctb if I'm still desperate.

 

[Grumpy Frog]

I think I would still be suicidal but I wouldn't even start the plan to kill myself. If I was depressed I could just book a trip to Italy and be depressed in a beautiful place like Rome which has a better chance of turning it around, even if I just sat on a balcony and stared at the views.

 

[PlanB]

Yes, especially because I could pay for something like dignitas which would be the most comfortable way to do it.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Yeah, pretty much. I'd probably give away some of my money to charity, to my family, and my bf and then would ctb. At best, being rich may postpone my suicide so that I could try and do a few things that I'd like to do before ctbing, but that's about it.

 

[Peter Skellern]

It'd be nice to do something for people (charity).

 

[sadalways]

I'd probably donate it, i don't really have any use for that amount of money. Unless i decided to live and go on, then these 5 mils would probably last me for decades.

 

[divinemistress36]

Yes, but like some others have said I would post pone it and it go have fun with it and then Id be like Oprah and buy everyone N

 

[Lyn]

and yes : fuck capitalism (that what you imply?) !

Well, by world structure, I didn't just mean the human society.

Unfortunately, I think it goes deeper than that.
All the laws of nature are based on the absorption of one thing by another, everything is subject to entropy and goes only in one direction, etc...

But the very fact that in a world organized in such a way, on absorption, pain and suffering could arise such a thing as consciousness ( or self-awareness, I dunno) which allows not only to feel all this fucked upness but to be fully aware of it...
That's some kind of absolutely twisted bullshit.

 

[DarknessAtNoon]

I think millions of dollars would delay my suicide but ultimately wouldn't prevent it.

 

[NonEssential]

Possibly. It would remove the huge stress that comes from being poor. Perhaps even the loneliness problem, because people are attracted to wealth.

 

[derekWest]

Well, by world structure, I didn't just mean the human society.

Unfortunately, I think it goes deeper than that.
All the laws of nature are based on the absorption of one thing by another, everything is subject to entropy and goes only in one direction, etc...

But the very fact that in a world organized in such a way, on absorption, pain and suffering could arise such a thing as consciousness ( or self-awareness, I dunno) which allows not only to feel all this fucked upness but to be fully aware of it...
That's some kind of absolutely twisted bullshit.

oh, i like your thinking !

yes, entropy is a very powerful concept. it seem to imply a lot of bad feelings, unlucky...

But, human society can decrease violence (by decreasing the entropy in some way) using progressive politics

 

[areyousafe??]

It would make me less suicidal because I no longer have to go through torture to ensure I have a roof over my head, however I would still feel suicidal. Money won't erase the depression and sadness, the emptiness and the past.

 

[Namelesa]

It would definitely help in that I can live away from my family and have more choices with how I want my life to go but I would probably still fail in getting better or I do everything I want to do with my life and would ctb anyways later on I don't want to suffer this repetitive boring existence. I definitely won't need that much money so probably spend it on charities or donating to this website.

 

[Lyn]

But human society can decrease violence (by decreasing the entropy in some way) using progressive politics

I guess you are right, it can. Maybe it even managed to get just a little bit closer to this at certain times.

But I feel like it is only to be dragged back again to where it was in this endless circle.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes i would want to commit suicide and still do it no matter the circumstances.

I don't want anything from evil life and this evil world

 

[blackIronPrison]

It wouldn't make me magically want to be alive, but it would allow me access to resources and activities that are unobtainable otherwise.

Pretty much I would just have more stuff I could try first but eventually I think I know what the outcome would be.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Yes. Money doesn't change the fact that my body is fucked and I'm in pain all the time.

 

[SufferingNSilence]

It could POSSIBLY save me. I spent over a decade suffering in my body bc I got dealt an effed up health card in life. Apparently there are newer and more innovative treatments on the rise ....but costs SOOOO much $$$.

I always had a hustle/go-getter mentality...it's how I got this far. ..but oh God I'm so TIRED and just don't want to suffer anymore. People have NO CLUE what it's like(I didn't either!...that is, until I did) what this illness is like.

I want to live....just NOT "like this". I would give anything to feel healthy in my body again.

 

[SilentSadness]

$5,000,000? I don't think I could pay rent for an apartment with such a little amount. Remember, only the top 100 people can afford to buy things now. Also, I would never win money anyway so it would have to be a parallel universe for that to happen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd personally always prefer to not exist, non-existence is all that's desirable and positive for me, I'd just never wish for the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human, I have no interest in existing rather I wish I never suffered at all, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I simply don't want to be conscious at all, simply just existing causes me to suffer and is enough to make me wish for death.

All I personally hope for is to fall asleep eternally and I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again, to me existence really does feel like a mistake, I see existence as so unnecessary and I just find it so horrific how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured by old age, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the thought of suffering until old age is really unbearable to me.

 

[GlassMoon]

Most of my problems are due to stress and the fear of never being able to work again. Having financial security would greatly reduce that stress. A bunch of my other problems could also be solved with money. Only if pain were to stay, it might be a different story.

 

[TheHolySword]

that would make me want to CTB more. the money I leave behind could change my loved ones' lives