Would you CTB if you had no family left?

[KolK]

Was reading some threads in the forums and realize how lucky in a twisted way I am to not have any family left.

It makes my plans to CTB in September much easier, knowing I won't be breaking anyone's hearts.

 

[makingsure4]

Hear ya. No family here either. I feel like a female Russel Crowe in The Gladiator. Probably everyone has compassion or at least sympathy for that character's suicidal feelings. He just wants to leave his body and go to the people he loves most. He lacks hope. The way they wrote the script does anyone judge him? No or if they do I wouldn't ever want to "hang out" with them. In my forties with no family the isolation is so intense and heart breaking. My friends are mostly busy with their families. Along with everything else my body deals with it is just too much. Boo hoo...but not today.

 

[gtrfvr]

Was reading some threads in the forums and realize how lucky in a twisted way I am to not have any family left.

It makes my plans to CTB in September much easier, knowing I won't be breaking anyone's hearts.

Have one family member that i haven't cut off left. When she passes I hope to successfully ctb. May do it before depending on how things turn out.

 

[Hurt]

What about friends?

 

[the_final_countdown]

I don't think I would. The urge to survive is too strong.

It scares me sometimes. I'm not sure there's any amount of suffering that would push me over the edge. I don't have the disposition for it.

I have this suspicion I'll just exist, fueled by only dim impulses like hunger and coldness on the streets one day. And it'll be that way for decades, until eventually illness takes me.

 

[loopylou]

Yes

 

[Lost Magic]

I have no family left and, yes, I am closer than ever to CTB.

 

[Jumping_realms]

I'd have been gone if they all were.

That's what I'm trying to get past now is their expected grief, and just do it.

 

[Pen>Sword]

No family? I'll CTB within a month. That would make it easier for me to CTB. They keep a close eye in me ever since my mental health starting
to rot. As I've always said, they're both blessing and a curse. A blessing because they love me unconditionally. A curse because they will call 911 emergency in the middle of my suicide attempt (lets say hanging, but not my method) when permanent brain and organ damage is guaranteed.

 

[Dear Agony]

Yes, like instantly lol. My mom is the only reason I am alive.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have a few family members, but it isn't holding me back, I know they would be sad but I wouldn't stay alive just for the sake of others. It would be selfish of them to expect me to. It would make it easier to ctb though, as there would be nobody to get in the way of any plans.

 

[Anonymous_A]

*People who have family*
'Damn I wanna ctb, can't because I have family'

*person then loses family*
'damn, I wanna ctb but can't get reliable method'

*person then finds reliable method*
'damn, I'm doubting this method. (Eg;Damn N won't work on me!)

But seriously, if a person really wants to ctb/die, like forreal, then they won't care what's left behind.