Worry About Family & Loved Ones Reaction

[PaxAmerica]

CTB is one thing but the thought of the pain I will cause loved ones is really hard. I think I will wait until they are gone and then do it. I rely so much on my mom even though I am an older adult. Always been close and even now while feeling low she hugs me. But I am really struggling again now.
How do people consider loved ones when they are thinking about CTB?

 

[2011.HondaCivic]

Honestly, unless you are literally a psychopath it's not a thing that you can successfully deal with the feeling of. Even for people that are so far gone that for them there is no other option but to CTB, that thought remains in their mind. The only options you have are to either stay with your loved ones, or somehow push through that feeling. Sorry, this probably wasn't the answer that you were looking for lol, but it's what I have.

 

[PaxAmerica]

Honestly, unless you are literally a psychopath it's not a thing that you can successfully deal with the feeling of. Even for people that are so far gone that for them there is no other option but to CTB, that thought remains in their mind. The only options you have are to either stay with your loved ones, or somehow push through that feeling. Sorry, this probably wasn't the answer that you were looking for lol, but it's what I have.

No I appreciate your frankness. I dont care about myself much now. But I worry about my mom and bro.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have a few family members that I would be leaving behind, and I know they would be sad, but I would never suffer for the sake of others. It is selfish for them to expect me too. I plan to write a note saying 'there is nothing you could have done' and 'now I am at peace'. It may give them some closure.

 

[motel rooms]

Who would've guessed that having no loved ones would come in so handy one day? YAY!

 

[PaxAmerica]

Who would've guessed that having no loved ones would come in so handy one day? YAY!

You mean you have no one close to you in life?

 

[2011.HondaCivic]

Who would've guessed that having no loved ones would come in so handy one day? YAY!

I dislike everyone in my house with a passion, but sadly I have one close friend I have online. My weakness

 

[motel rooms]

You mean you have no one close to you in life?

No, no one close enough

 

[PaxAmerica]

No, no one close enough

Buddy I dont know what to say. I see what you mean though. On the bright side you dont have to worry about upsetting anyone by going.

 

[motel rooms]

On the bright side you dont have to worry about upsetting anyone by going.

That's right, I'm free as a bird

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

it's not like my friends or my brother or won't get upset when I'm gone, but I know (and I'm glad) that they will be able to move on. I suppose that my mom will be crushed, having lost my dad. But then again we all survived when my dad had passed. And even though that's when I started having first suicidal thoughts, we managed to kinda move on…. So me kms won't be the end of the world. And it helps knowing I won't see how bad it can get for the others. Maybe it won't be so horrible for them. But I believe that I'm my own person and I didn't ask to be brought into this world. So no one has a right to make me stay, if I don't want to

 

[Hurt]

That's the worst part of ctb. People who love you will be sad. A friend of mine told me not to do it because he will be very sad but I can't get the idea off my mind. I'm tired of my life.