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depressedmaniac

depressedmaniac

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Apr 19, 2022
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Hi guys! first post :). anyways wanna leave today with full. woke up from 3!partial suspension attempts. wtf? last one I felt weird for like a week with my throat hurting. I have no problem passing out fast but I just wake up again after some time. So full this time. but I cant help but think imma wake up from full aswell choking to death. Imma do it no matter what but im just a bit worried. Idk if anybody has any similar expierence.
 
BigG91

BigG91

I'd rather be homeless with good health.
Aug 21, 2021
191
You are not gonna wake up from full suspension. It's a one way ticket.
 
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depressedmaniac

depressedmaniac

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Apr 19, 2022
68
You are not gonna wake up from full suspension. It's a one way ticket.
thanks for your input. I really hope so. I seen a video though where someone did wake up and choked to death. So I am a bit worried still. I tend to overthink and catastrophize though.
 
BigG91

BigG91

I'd rather be homeless with good health.
Aug 21, 2021
191
thanks for your input. I really hope so. I seen a video though where someone did wake up and choked to death. So I am a bit worried still. I tend to overthink and catastrophize though.
Could you please send the link to the video ?
 
depressedmaniac

depressedmaniac

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Apr 19, 2022
68
Could you please send the link to the video ?
Oh I dont have a link. I has been awhile since I watched it. Someone posted it on here idk when.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I have never attempted hanging and to me it sounds like a horrible way to leave this world. The fear of failure holds me back, but I guess when I get very desperate I will have no other choice. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point and I wish you the best in whatever happens. I hope you find what you are looking for.
 
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depressedmaniac

depressedmaniac

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Apr 19, 2022
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I have never attempted hanging and to me it sounds like a horrible way to leave this world. The fear of failure holds me back, but I guess when I get very desperate I will have no other choice. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point and I wish you the best in whatever happens. I hope you find what you are looking for.
Its fine. I caused my fair share of being a dick. Im just whiny as usual. I really wondered though how I kept waking up and couldn't find any other place to ask. sorry to hear you haven't find a method suitable for you.
 

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