Wish i could stop chickening out AHGGG

[Cyber4ngel!]

Please just let me overcome SI
God just let me die
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Should i get drunk
Im so tired
It's so loud
It's so loud
It's so loud
There's no people around me
I should just do it
I dont want this to be a failed attempt again
Tried to do this last night already
And the night before i tried partial suspension
I wish I had a gun
Maybe my brain would look pretty scattered on the floor
I did it again, I let another one go by
What a coward

 

[whyidon'tknow]

I am in the same boat. These biological instincts that have been around forever are hard to fight. Sending you some love and kindness

 

[Cyber4ngel!]

I can't live like this anymore.

I'm not cut out for this.

I should have died long ago.

I'm tired of everything.

Everything that's happening feels unreal.

Nothing makes sense.

Everything since I stepped away from the train tracks is out of place, nothing makes sense, I don't recognize faces, I don't recognize places.

I don't even know who I am.

Nor what my relationship is with those around me

I don't know where I am or what I'm doing.

I don't feel real, I don't feel human.

I feel like I'm still sitting on the tracks waiting for the trains to pass.

I feel like my body is dead, laying scattered on the floor and my mind just doesn't want to tell me.

I feel trapped in a dead body that no longer wants to live.

 

[StupidCat]

You should start making peace with dying so you can stop fearing death.

 

[katara]

Off topic but wow that video you took is so weird to me. Trains are so much faster where I live hahaha. I saw your profile picture show up when I just logged on and it caught my attention because of all the colors so I wanted to click on your account and say hi.