Will you ctb before or after Christmas

[voool]

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[Chinaski]

Definitely before Christmas. I just can't decide *which* Christmas.

Tbh it could be any day now, it really is a case of 'one day at a time' and if the courage and desperation combine, as they have done on rare occasions, I'll take advantage of it.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

After this christmas. I'm still* healing from surgery, plus I fuckin love food.

Definitely thinking about doing it in January when I'm more mobile if I still have the money. Else I'll save back up and do it next year some time

 

[Imnobody]

Yes. You?

 

[deflagrat]

I think most people have already ctbed so they can't answer you. I won't start thinking about ctb until my father dies.

 

[Empty Smile]

I'm looking at new year's Eve/day. But if I keep going further into the slunp I'm in, it will be before.

 

[kllmsftly]

It'd be ideal, I dread having to deal with a whole new year and suffering a repeat of 2018 all over again.

 

[Mr. Bill]

After Christmas, I have a guilty conscience, and I love my family.

 

[Karl]

After
besides that the sn package would not have arrived before

 

[Goldie]

I'm really surprised that after Christmas is more popular, I thought that the suicide rate went up at Christmas time.
I wanted to CTB between Christmas and NYE, I have ordered my N but unfortunately A has said it will not arrive until early Jan. :((

EDIT: Apparently higher suicide rates at Christmas is a myth!

 

[Tara2018]

If everything goes by my plan I will CTB during Christmas in Italy, in a hotel room.

 

[Trashcan]

I'm hoping before. I've been getting pushed closer to the edge more and more. I have a pretty good idea of when I might do it. But I still have to wait to hear back about something.

 

[Deafsn0w]

Definitely after Christmas, i dont want to hurt my family

 

[ThisIsTheEnd]

I'll most likely ctb after Christmas, I'd prefer to not fuck up my family's celebrations until they are done.

 

[TAW122]

I generally try to avoid holidays, special occasions, and times, but when things get too difficult, then I wouldn't care anymore when it is as long as I get my chance. My 'when' is partially based on circumstances, trigger events, and also time to a certain extent. In other words, based on both time and circumstance.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

Would prefer before christmas but don't think my cowardice brought on by my enormous fear of another possible failure will let me go through with it:(

 

[worldexploder]

It's going to be after Christmas. Aiming for January.

 

[wanttodie]

It's going to be after Christmas some time in the new year

 

[Paulsmith]

I'm planning to do it before Xmas. Did have Xmas day as a maximum wait

 

[ChemicallyCalm]

Unsure tbh, I'd like to CTB before Christmas of course but also I'm a selfish ass and I wanna see what my gifts are this year first

 

[Motherfly]

After this christmas. I'm still* healing from surgery, plus I fuckin love food.

Definitely thinking about doing it in January when I'm more mobile if I still have the money. Else I'll save back up and do it next year some time

What surgery did you get?

 

[stargazer]

At this rate, with my current feelings of euphoria and optimism, way before Christmas. I'm just waiting for my partner with his/her car.
I've been holding out for this for too long already, I don't think I can even do another year.
So here's hoping they come along before this year ends. But I'm a chicken, so I likely won't all alone.

 

[Dizzy]

Doesn't matter to me. I'll be alone on Christmas anyways.

 

[Idorus]

Definitely before Christmas. I just can't decide *which* Christmas.

Tbh it could be any day now, it really is a case of 'one day at a time' and if the courage and desperation combine, as they have done on rare occasions, I'll take advantage of it.

I'll miss you..
I had the Biggest laugh since a decade with you on the Sarco thread.

 

[OkTotti]

Doesn't matter to me. I'll be alone on Christmas anyways.

You might be surprised being with large family pretending to be happy and putting on a mask of happiness is pretty awful too. I try not to give a hint that I want to CTB, but it's so difficult

 

[Tyuiop]

Most likely during christmas, because my grandmother will leave for holidays and she won't have to find me, instead my neighbors will see me or something like that. It's shitty but i don't want my grandmother to see my corpse and have a heart attack.

 

[Jaded]

That's the plan. Been buying all my presents the last few days.

 

[Goldie]

You might be surprised being with large family pretending to be happy and putting on a mask of happiness is pretty awful too. I try not to give a hint that I want to CTB, but it's so difficult

Yes its really awful. I am kind of relieved that I will be away from my country so I dont have to pretend to be happy.

 

[Arak]

@voool ,

Hopefully. But finding a method that I can actually do, considering health/mobility issues and access is another story. Not even sure N would work. messed up CNS.

You read a lot of books ? Feel free to suggest something. I just can't do partial suspension, low body weight and where I live the ceiling is just too low ! Drug methods: stuff like Amy... might work (but due to tolerance, sedatives will likely not) but I'm just not sure about cardiac arrythmia leading to death. I need to be certain, at least not surviving with brain damage. I read Geo Stone and Guide to a Humane ...

Hypoxia with exit bag seems tricky ... bad, regulator, gas ... not much gas in 'Max Dog', 0.4 m3

 

[voool]

@voool ,

Hopefully. But finding a method that I can actually do, considering health/mobility issues and access is another story. Not even sure N would work. messed up CNS.

You read a lot of books ? Feel free to suggest something. I just can't do partial suspension, low body weight and where I live the ceiling is just too low ! Drug methods: stuff like Amy... might work (but due to tolerance, sedatives will likely not) but I'm just not sure about cardiac arrythmia leading to death. I need to be certain, at least not surviving with brain damage. I read Geo Stone and Guide to a Humane ...

Hypoxia with exit bag seems tricky ... bad, regulator, gas ... not much gas in 'Max Dog', 0.4 m3

If you have the money try using morphine and a benzo with beer. Morphine over 500mg will kill you If you do not have a tolerance