Hey there everyone. I'm a sufferer, I deal with very solid suicidal thoughts for like 2 years. I deal with PSSD for 5+ years now.
It's just too much, when they remove your ability to feel emotions, pleasure and things. Those were the only ones that kept me sane, I thrived on them even on severe depression, like a valve to be able to escape it all. You maybe know, music, hobbies, sex, writting, exercise, etc - everything that for all the history of human society has always been the very only chance to get off a hole. Nothing is cliche by chance. And meds are charlatanism to say the least. ------------ Vent end.
In fact, I never really thought about suicide before it happened. I gave meds the the benefit of the doubt, just to end up a thousand times more miserable. Now I do have access to things like SN and the protocol (but not enough money - also not a dark market thing in my case, if anyone's gonna ask me: I don't know), but I have an easier access to Z (clona) drugs - 150 mg of it. And 1,5 lyters of alchl.
I would like to know if thats enough. I know some things about how SN works and how benzos + alc would. The second one looks less scary but the former feels more certain, but I can't get it now.
Would just like to have some perspective on both methods, I'm in a "rush" to end it, not only rn (it's been in my mind for a long time). But if anything, I can wait some more days. Appreciate it.
GG.
It's just too much, when they remove your ability to feel emotions, pleasure and things. Those were the only ones that kept me sane, I thrived on them even on severe depression, like a valve to be able to escape it all. You maybe know, music, hobbies, sex, writting, exercise, etc - everything that for all the history of human society has always been the very only chance to get off a hole. Nothing is cliche by chance. And meds are charlatanism to say the least. ------------ Vent end.
In fact, I never really thought about suicide before it happened. I gave meds the the benefit of the doubt, just to end up a thousand times more miserable. Now I do have access to things like SN and the protocol (but not enough money - also not a dark market thing in my case, if anyone's gonna ask me: I don't know), but I have an easier access to Z (clona) drugs - 150 mg of it. And 1,5 lyters of alchl.
I would like to know if thats enough. I know some things about how SN works and how benzos + alc would. The second one looks less scary but the former feels more certain, but I can't get it now.
Would just like to have some perspective on both methods, I'm in a "rush" to end it, not only rn (it's been in my mind for a long time). But if anything, I can wait some more days. Appreciate it.
GG.
